i miss you.
so im trying to hang in there. these past few days have been really
hard though. my mom has been on my case for everything. it never helps.
and just flips out for whatever. im trying to hard not to cry right
now. i just keep thinking "everything happens for a reason". but why. i
talked to raymond but everything thats happened these past 10months. i
think he is like the only person i have cried in front of about any of
it.
im so sick of crying myself to sleep.
i feel sick to my stomache.
so i cant trust people period. Thought things were dif with ben. but that proved me wrong. everytime i think about anything, i just think about how he hurt me. whatever. time to get on with things.
so thats about it. not so happy. no so cheerfull. give me a week. going to talk to steve(old youth minister, plus one of the most amazing men i know) bout helping out with youth, now that i have been out for a year. that would be nice. i love it there.
later
stace
im so sick of crying myself to sleep.
i feel sick to my stomache.
so i cant trust people period. Thought things were dif with ben. but that proved me wrong. everytime i think about anything, i just think about how he hurt me. whatever. time to get on with things.
so thats about it. not so happy. no so cheerfull. give me a week. going to talk to steve(old youth minister, plus one of the most amazing men i know) bout helping out with youth, now that i have been out for a year. that would be nice. i love it there.
later
stace