Theme 9
Well I have not written much since my mom took my three notebooks of writings and ripped them apart and then threw them away. After that I lost hope in it as my salvation. I was able to save one notebook that I had at my dads house so here's a few from them...
No titles on any of em sorry!
I gaze at the moon
From the window of my room
Turning around I see you lying on my bed
Dreams flowing through your head
I reach out and run my hands through your hair
Looking all the blonder, framing your face so fair
Your eyes open and look up at me
And you are all I can see
You kiss me and your lips have never been so full
And I know I have broken every rule
Down your neck I slowly kiss
Are you anticipating bliss
Your hands run playfully down my back
You have given me everything, there’s nothing I lack
You’ve chased my fears away
With a whisper of “I’ll always stay”
I worked so hard to get here
And its been made clear
This is where I’m meant to be, in my room
Making love under the moon
All I seem to want is attention
So I put on this face
And smile away the day
But I catch myself
Every time I see a mirror
I try to find myself
But all I see disgusts me
And I go away somewhere else
I can’t allow myself to be me
I don’t like my true self
But I don’t like how you see me
And I’m stuck
There is nothing that makes me feel
I use to get sad but I’ve forgotten
I use to be happy but that’s long gone
So now I disguise myself
What do you think
Do you like what you see
If not how would you like me to be
I see the fear on your face
And I pull you into an embrace
My mind searches for a reason
Some kind of diversion
But I come up blank