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[behindbluexeyes]

ok basically i fucked myself over... waht the hell was i thinking... i am so easily manipulated to do things and look where its fucking gotten me... well im going out with chris and no it wasnt a mistake... im a mistake... the stuff i give into is a mistake... not chris. why the fuck do i fucking do this to myself? seriously, i've been doing it since i was like 6 years old. i bet you money if i was walking down the street (when i was younger) and some guy told me to get into the car i would say "no" then he would be like "i have candy and toys... come into my car" and i would be like "ok!"
its kinda funny when i think about it ... im lucky that know one tryed to ubduct me...
i wish someone would fucking understand where im coming from