maybe thats just life. maybe thats just who i am.
Everything about my life is glittering with good fortune right now. I have a sweet, beautiful girlfriend, a dog, a good car and a decent job (@ which I am next in line for promotion). We are looking for our own apartment, so we can have cookouts and movie nights. We have vacations planned. Trips.
But for some reason the last 2 weeks have been killing me. I have weird dreams and can't sleep right, I am grumpy and irritable and all I can think about is grad school and traveling the world. I feel like I'm wasting time, for no reason @ all. I just feel anxious. I wish it would stop so I can go back to loving every minute of my life and having lots of sex. (yeah, I said it.)
I really need to learn to enjoy things as they come. The issue is that I want everything right now. I am used to deciding what I want and getting it, somehow, and I have clearly come to a point in my life where that's just not feasable. Apparently parts of me are not satisfied with this.
Parts of me better shut the hell up.
I'm sure taking the next step, finding a place and settling into it, will improve my dismal attitude. Its a lot brighter outside than I have been giving it credit for.