yeh so this is how i feel, k awesome.
okay so i finally realized guys are dicks &will mess with you, but you know im fine with this for once. I REALZED I DIDNT GET ATTACHED &IM HAPPY IM NOT EVER GOING TO BE WITH HIM, it makes me smile. NO MORE getting attached. im done with that.
im finally happy being independent &knowing someday, i will be happy.
im suprised i realized this because im usually the on who sits &get pissed at herself for not being good enough, but i dont care anymore. i have GREAT friends &i couldn't ask for anything more. i dont need a guy to make me happy i just need my friends &family &ill be alright.
i get so caught up sometimes with the situation with boys, that i dont pay attention to life &having fun. well fuck that shit, im over it &the drama of boys. now, im not turning lesbian lol, but im not letting guys push me around &im not going to let myself think they acutally care, because more then half don't.
i just wish i met someone like the guy i fell in love with 3 years ago, he was perfect in everyway &NEVER, EVER did anything to hurt me. &in the end i hurt him which was the biggest mistake ive ever made in my life. it causes me such heartache that the littlest things remind me of him &us, that i just breakdown &cry. &it hurts to know im the one that fucked it up. but you know things happen for a reason &im sure we will get back together one time or another, because i just know. we will go through fases &go through different relationships, but im sure we will end up together. well uhm i hope.
so yeh im not depressed anymore ¬ gunna be. ITS SUMMER &TIME TO HAVE FUN! so forget all those stupid things that bother me &no more, im done.
ps. i love emily &eric.
&im on the phone with them right now.
♥
im finally happy being independent &knowing someday, i will be happy.
im suprised i realized this because im usually the on who sits &get pissed at herself for not being good enough, but i dont care anymore. i have GREAT friends &i couldn't ask for anything more. i dont need a guy to make me happy i just need my friends &family &ill be alright.
i get so caught up sometimes with the situation with boys, that i dont pay attention to life &having fun. well fuck that shit, im over it &the drama of boys. now, im not turning lesbian lol, but im not letting guys push me around &im not going to let myself think they acutally care, because more then half don't.
i just wish i met someone like the guy i fell in love with 3 years ago, he was perfect in everyway &NEVER, EVER did anything to hurt me. &in the end i hurt him which was the biggest mistake ive ever made in my life. it causes me such heartache that the littlest things remind me of him &us, that i just breakdown &cry. &it hurts to know im the one that fucked it up. but you know things happen for a reason &im sure we will get back together one time or another, because i just know. we will go through fases &go through different relationships, but im sure we will end up together. well uhm i hope.
so yeh im not depressed anymore ¬ gunna be. ITS SUMMER &TIME TO HAVE FUN! so forget all those stupid things that bother me &no more, im done.
ps. i love emily &eric.
&im on the phone with them right now.
♥