hit me [as hard as you can-and make it feel like a kiss]
SURVIVAL SERIES
1983-1985
[jenny holzer]
YOU ARE TRAPPED ON THE EARTH SO YOU WILL EXPLODE
WHAT URGE WILL SAVE US IF SEX WON'T
PUT FOOD OUT IN THE SAME PLACE EVERY DAY AND TALK TO THE PEOPLE WHO COME TO EAT AND ORGANIZE THEM
SAVOR KINDNESS BECAUSE CREULTY IS POSSIBLE LATER
DANCE ON DOWN TO THE GOVERNMENT AND TELL THEM YOUR EAGER TO RULE BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR YOU
THE BREAKDOWN COMES WHEN YOU STOP CONTROLLING YOURSELF AND WANT THE RELEASE OF A BLOODBATH
SPIT ALL OVER SOMEONE WITH A MOUTHFUL OF MILK IF YOU WANT TO FIND OUT SOMETHING ABOUT HIS PERSONALITY FAST
MOTHERS WITH REASON TO SOB SHOULD DO IT IN GROUPS IN PUBLIC AND WAIT FOR OFFERS
OUTER SPACE IS WHERE YOU DISCOVER WONDER AND WHERE YOU FIGHT AND NEVER HURT EARTH IF YOU STOP BELIEVING THIS YOUR MOOD TURNS UGLY
DIE FAST AND QUIET WHEN THEY INTERROGATE YOU OR LIVE SO LONG THEY ARE ASHAMED TO HURT YOU ANYMORE
IF YOU HAD BEHAVED NICELY THE COMMUNISTS WOULDN'T EXIST
TRUST VISIONS THAT DON'T FEATURE BUCKETS OF BLOOD
IN A DREAM YOU SAW A WAY TO SURVIVE AND YOU WERE FULL OF JOY
IF YOU'RE CONSIDERED USELESS NO ONE WILL FEED YOU ANYMORE
WHEN YOU EXPECT FAIR PLAY YOU CREATE AN INFECTIOUS BUBBLE OF MADNESS AROUND YOU
YOU ARE SO COMPLEX THAT YOU DON'T ALWAYS RESPOND TO DANGER
MEN DON'T PROTECT YOU ANYMORE
WITH ALL THE HOLES IN YOU ALREADY THERE'S NO REASON TO DEFINE THE OUTSIDE ENVIROMENT AS ALIEN
WHEN SOMEONE BEATS YOU WITH A FLASHLIGHT YOU MAKE THE LIGHT SHINE IN ALL DIRECTIONS
FINDING EXTREME PLEASURE WILL MAKE YOU A BETTER ABOUT WHAT THRILLS YOU
USE A STUN GUN WHEN THE PERSON COMING AT YOU HAS A GOOD EXCUSE
IT IS IN YOUR INTEREST TO FIND A WAY TO BE VERY TENDER
THE BEGINNING OF THE WAR WILL BE SECRET
THE CONVERSATION ALWAYS TURNS TO LIVING LONG ENOUGH TO HAVE FUN
WHAT COUNTRY SHOULD YOU ADOPT IF YOU HATE POOR PEOPLE?
USE WHAT IS DOMINANT IN CULTURE AND CHANGE IT QUICKLY
PROTECT ME FROM WHAT I WANT
YOU ARE CAUGHT THINKING ABOUT KILLING ANYONE YOU WANT
IT'S HARD TO KNOW IF YOU'RE CRAZY IF YOU FEEL YOU'RE IN DANGER ALL THE TIME NOW
YOU CAN'T REACH PEOPLE WHO CAN KILL YOU ANY TIME SO YOU HAVE TO GO HOME AND THINK ABOUT WHAT TO DO
THE FUTURE IS STUPID
HIDE UNDERWATER OR ANYWHERE SO UNDISTRUBED YOU FEEL THE JERK OF PLEASURE WHEN AN IDEA COMES
SOMEONE ELSE'S BODY IS A PLACE FOR YOUR MIND TO GO
WHEN THERE'S NO SAFE PLACE TO SLEEP YOU'RE TIRED FROM WALKING ALL DAY AND EXHAUSTED FROM THE NIGHT BECAUSE IT'S TWICE AS DANGEROUS THEN
IT'S EASY TO GET MILLIONS OF PEOPLE ON EVERY CONTINENT TO PLEDGE ALLEGIANCE TO EATING AND EQUAL OPPURTUNITY
GO WHERE PEOPLE SLEEP AND SEE IF THEY ARE SAFE
HANDS ON YOUR BREAST CAN KEEP YOUR HEART BEATING
TURN SOFT AND LOVELY ANYTIME YOU HAVE THE CHANCE
IT IS FUN TO WALK CARELESSLY IN A DEATH ZONE
YOU LIVE THE SURPRISE RESULTS OF OLD PLAINS
LET YOUR HAND WANDER ON THE FLESH TO MAKE POSSIBILITY MULTIPLY
IT IS EMBARRASHING TO BE CAUGHT AND KILLED FOR STUPID REASONS
SHOOT INTO INFINITE SPACE TO HIT A TARGET IN TIME AND CALL IT INEVITABLE
YOU HOVER NEAR LOVELY UNCONSCIOUS LIFE-FORMS THAT OFFER NO IMMEDIATE RESISTANCE
PEOPLE LOOK LIKE THEY ARE DANCING BEFORE THEY LOVE
BODIES LIE IN THE BRIGHT GRASS AND SOME ARE MURDERED AND SOME ARE PICNICKING
SILLY HOLES IN PEOPLE ARE BREEDING OR ARE FROM SHOOTING
YOUR MODERN FACE SEEMS THE SURPRISE ENDING
______________________
LUSTMORD - An Overview
PERPETRATOR
I SWIM IN HER AS SHE QUITES.
I SINK ON HER.
I SING HER A SONG ABOUT US.
I STEP ON HER HANDS.
I SPLAY HER FINGERS.
SHE ROOTS WITH HER BLUNT FACE.
SHE HUNTS ME WITH HER MOUTH.
SHE HAS THREE COLORS IN HER EYES.
I BITE HER CLOSED AGAIN.
I AM NEAR HER MILK.
I TELL HER TO SOAP HERSELF.
SHE TIGHTENS AND I HIT HER.
I WASH HER OUT.
I WATCH HER WHILE SHE THINKS ABOUT ME.
HER SALIVA RUNS WHEN SHE SLEEPS.
I HOOK HER SPINE.
SHE HAS A URINE SMELL.
HER SWALLOW REFLEX IS GONE.
HER HEAD EXPLODES IN THE FIRE.
HER BREASTS ARE ALL NIPPLE.
SHE ACTS LIKE AN ANIMAL LEFT FOR COOKING.
I FIND HER SQUATTING ON HER HEELS AND THIS OPENS HER SO I CAN GET HER FROM BELOW.
I TAKE HER FACE WITH ITS FINE HAIRS. I POSITION HER MOUTH.
I WANT TO FUCK HER WHERE SHE HAS TOO MUCH HAIR.
I HOOK MY CHIN OVER HER SHOULDER. NOW THAT SHE CAN STILL CONCENTRATE.
SHE HAS NO TASTE LEFT TO HER AND THIS MAKES IT EASIER FOR ME.
THE COLOR OF HER WHERE SHE IS INSIDE IS ENOUGH TO MAKE ME KILL HER.
VICTIM
I AM AWAKE IN A PLACE WHERE WOMEN DIE.
THE BIRD TURNS ITS HEAD AND LOOKS AT ME WITH ONE EYE AS YOU ENTER.
MY BREASTS ARE SO SWOLLEN THAT I BITE THEM
YOUR AWFUL LANGUAGE IS IN THE AIR BY MY HEAD
I DO NOT LIKE TO WALK BECAUSE I FEEL IT BETWEEN MY LEGS
HAIR IS STUCK INSIDE ME
MY NOSE BROKE IN THE GRASS. MY EYES ARE SORE MOVING AGAINST YOUR PALM.
I HAVE THE BLOOD JELLY.
WITH YOU INSDE ME COMES THE KNOWLEDGE OF MY DEATH.
YOU HAVE SKIN IN YOUR MOUTH. YOU LICK ME STUPIDLY.
YOU CONFUSE ME WITH SOMETHING THAT IS IN YOU. I WILL NOT PREDICT HOW YOU WANT TO USE ME.
I FEEL WHO YOU ARE AND IT DOES ME NO GOOD AT ALL.
I TRY TO EXCITE MYSELF SO I STAY CRAZY.
WHAT IS LEFT ON THE BLANKET IS CLEAR AND THE COLOR OF HELL.
OBSERVER
I WANT TO LIE DOWN BESIDE HER.
I HAVE NOT SINCE I WAS A CHILD.
I WILL BE COVERED BY WHAT HAS COME FROM HER.
SHE BEINGS TO MAKE MISTAKES IN HER LANGUAGE AND I CORRECT HER THE WAY SHE HAS TAUGHT ME.
I FIND HER TOWERLS SHOVED IN TIGHT SPOTS. I TAKE THEM TO BURN ALTHOUGH I FEAR TOUCHING THINGS.
SHE ASKS ME TO SLEEP IN THE HOUSE BUT I WILL NOT WITH HER NEW BODY AND ITS NOISES AND WETNESS.
SHE SMILES AT ME BECAUSE SHE IMAGINES I CAN HELP HER.
SHE COUGHS THE MOUTH STRINGS.
I WANT TO BRUSH HER HAIR BUT THE SMELL OF HER MAKES ME CROSS THE ROOM. I HELD MY BREATH AS LONG AS I COULD. I KNOW I DISAPPOINT HER.
SHE STARTED RUNNING WHEN EVERYTHING BEGAN POURING FROM HER BECAUSE SHE DID NOT WANT TO BE SEEN.
SHE FELL ON THE FLOOR IN MY ROOM. SHE TRIED TO BE CLEAN BUT SHE WAS NOT. I SEE HER TRAIL.
HER GORE IS IN THE BALL OF CLEANING RAGS. I CARRY OUT THE DAMPNESS FROM MY MOTHER. I RETURN TO HIDE HER JEWELRY
THE BLACK SPECKS INSIDE MY EYES FLOAT ON HER BODY. I WATCH THEM WHILE I THINK ABOUT HER.
I WANT TO SUCK ON HER TO MAKE HER RESPOND.
I WALK OUTSIDE TO THE PATH AND SEE THE PLANTS, EACH HANDLED BY HER, UNMARKED BY HER DYING.
SHE IS NARROW AND FLAT IN THE BLUE SACK AND I STAND WHEN THEY LIFT HER.
________________________________________________________________________
1983-1985
[jenny holzer]
YOU ARE TRAPPED ON THE EARTH SO YOU WILL EXPLODE
WHAT URGE WILL SAVE US IF SEX WON'T
PUT FOOD OUT IN THE SAME PLACE EVERY DAY AND TALK TO THE PEOPLE WHO COME TO EAT AND ORGANIZE THEM
SAVOR KINDNESS BECAUSE CREULTY IS POSSIBLE LATER
DANCE ON DOWN TO THE GOVERNMENT AND TELL THEM YOUR EAGER TO RULE BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR YOU
THE BREAKDOWN COMES WHEN YOU STOP CONTROLLING YOURSELF AND WANT THE RELEASE OF A BLOODBATH
SPIT ALL OVER SOMEONE WITH A MOUTHFUL OF MILK IF YOU WANT TO FIND OUT SOMETHING ABOUT HIS PERSONALITY FAST
MOTHERS WITH REASON TO SOB SHOULD DO IT IN GROUPS IN PUBLIC AND WAIT FOR OFFERS
OUTER SPACE IS WHERE YOU DISCOVER WONDER AND WHERE YOU FIGHT AND NEVER HURT EARTH IF YOU STOP BELIEVING THIS YOUR MOOD TURNS UGLY
DIE FAST AND QUIET WHEN THEY INTERROGATE YOU OR LIVE SO LONG THEY ARE ASHAMED TO HURT YOU ANYMORE
IF YOU HAD BEHAVED NICELY THE COMMUNISTS WOULDN'T EXIST
TRUST VISIONS THAT DON'T FEATURE BUCKETS OF BLOOD
IN A DREAM YOU SAW A WAY TO SURVIVE AND YOU WERE FULL OF JOY
IF YOU'RE CONSIDERED USELESS NO ONE WILL FEED YOU ANYMORE
WHEN YOU EXPECT FAIR PLAY YOU CREATE AN INFECTIOUS BUBBLE OF MADNESS AROUND YOU
YOU ARE SO COMPLEX THAT YOU DON'T ALWAYS RESPOND TO DANGER
MEN DON'T PROTECT YOU ANYMORE
WITH ALL THE HOLES IN YOU ALREADY THERE'S NO REASON TO DEFINE THE OUTSIDE ENVIROMENT AS ALIEN
WHEN SOMEONE BEATS YOU WITH A FLASHLIGHT YOU MAKE THE LIGHT SHINE IN ALL DIRECTIONS
FINDING EXTREME PLEASURE WILL MAKE YOU A BETTER ABOUT WHAT THRILLS YOU
USE A STUN GUN WHEN THE PERSON COMING AT YOU HAS A GOOD EXCUSE
IT IS IN YOUR INTEREST TO FIND A WAY TO BE VERY TENDER
THE BEGINNING OF THE WAR WILL BE SECRET
THE CONVERSATION ALWAYS TURNS TO LIVING LONG ENOUGH TO HAVE FUN
WHAT COUNTRY SHOULD YOU ADOPT IF YOU HATE POOR PEOPLE?
USE WHAT IS DOMINANT IN CULTURE AND CHANGE IT QUICKLY
PROTECT ME FROM WHAT I WANT
YOU ARE CAUGHT THINKING ABOUT KILLING ANYONE YOU WANT
IT'S HARD TO KNOW IF YOU'RE CRAZY IF YOU FEEL YOU'RE IN DANGER ALL THE TIME NOW
YOU CAN'T REACH PEOPLE WHO CAN KILL YOU ANY TIME SO YOU HAVE TO GO HOME AND THINK ABOUT WHAT TO DO
THE FUTURE IS STUPID
HIDE UNDERWATER OR ANYWHERE SO UNDISTRUBED YOU FEEL THE JERK OF PLEASURE WHEN AN IDEA COMES
SOMEONE ELSE'S BODY IS A PLACE FOR YOUR MIND TO GO
WHEN THERE'S NO SAFE PLACE TO SLEEP YOU'RE TIRED FROM WALKING ALL DAY AND EXHAUSTED FROM THE NIGHT BECAUSE IT'S TWICE AS DANGEROUS THEN
IT'S EASY TO GET MILLIONS OF PEOPLE ON EVERY CONTINENT TO PLEDGE ALLEGIANCE TO EATING AND EQUAL OPPURTUNITY
GO WHERE PEOPLE SLEEP AND SEE IF THEY ARE SAFE
HANDS ON YOUR BREAST CAN KEEP YOUR HEART BEATING
TURN SOFT AND LOVELY ANYTIME YOU HAVE THE CHANCE
IT IS FUN TO WALK CARELESSLY IN A DEATH ZONE
YOU LIVE THE SURPRISE RESULTS OF OLD PLAINS
LET YOUR HAND WANDER ON THE FLESH TO MAKE POSSIBILITY MULTIPLY
IT IS EMBARRASHING TO BE CAUGHT AND KILLED FOR STUPID REASONS
SHOOT INTO INFINITE SPACE TO HIT A TARGET IN TIME AND CALL IT INEVITABLE
YOU HOVER NEAR LOVELY UNCONSCIOUS LIFE-FORMS THAT OFFER NO IMMEDIATE RESISTANCE
PEOPLE LOOK LIKE THEY ARE DANCING BEFORE THEY LOVE
BODIES LIE IN THE BRIGHT GRASS AND SOME ARE MURDERED AND SOME ARE PICNICKING
SILLY HOLES IN PEOPLE ARE BREEDING OR ARE FROM SHOOTING
YOUR MODERN FACE SEEMS THE SURPRISE ENDING
______________________
LUSTMORD - An Overview
PERPETRATOR
I SWIM IN HER AS SHE QUITES.
I SINK ON HER.
I SING HER A SONG ABOUT US.
I STEP ON HER HANDS.
I SPLAY HER FINGERS.
SHE ROOTS WITH HER BLUNT FACE.
SHE HUNTS ME WITH HER MOUTH.
SHE HAS THREE COLORS IN HER EYES.
I BITE HER CLOSED AGAIN.
I AM NEAR HER MILK.
I TELL HER TO SOAP HERSELF.
SHE TIGHTENS AND I HIT HER.
I WASH HER OUT.
I WATCH HER WHILE SHE THINKS ABOUT ME.
HER SALIVA RUNS WHEN SHE SLEEPS.
I HOOK HER SPINE.
SHE HAS A URINE SMELL.
HER SWALLOW REFLEX IS GONE.
HER HEAD EXPLODES IN THE FIRE.
HER BREASTS ARE ALL NIPPLE.
SHE ACTS LIKE AN ANIMAL LEFT FOR COOKING.
I FIND HER SQUATTING ON HER HEELS AND THIS OPENS HER SO I CAN GET HER FROM BELOW.
I TAKE HER FACE WITH ITS FINE HAIRS. I POSITION HER MOUTH.
I WANT TO FUCK HER WHERE SHE HAS TOO MUCH HAIR.
I HOOK MY CHIN OVER HER SHOULDER. NOW THAT SHE CAN STILL CONCENTRATE.
SHE HAS NO TASTE LEFT TO HER AND THIS MAKES IT EASIER FOR ME.
THE COLOR OF HER WHERE SHE IS INSIDE IS ENOUGH TO MAKE ME KILL HER.
VICTIM
I AM AWAKE IN A PLACE WHERE WOMEN DIE.
THE BIRD TURNS ITS HEAD AND LOOKS AT ME WITH ONE EYE AS YOU ENTER.
MY BREASTS ARE SO SWOLLEN THAT I BITE THEM
YOUR AWFUL LANGUAGE IS IN THE AIR BY MY HEAD
I DO NOT LIKE TO WALK BECAUSE I FEEL IT BETWEEN MY LEGS
HAIR IS STUCK INSIDE ME
MY NOSE BROKE IN THE GRASS. MY EYES ARE SORE MOVING AGAINST YOUR PALM.
I HAVE THE BLOOD JELLY.
WITH YOU INSDE ME COMES THE KNOWLEDGE OF MY DEATH.
YOU HAVE SKIN IN YOUR MOUTH. YOU LICK ME STUPIDLY.
YOU CONFUSE ME WITH SOMETHING THAT IS IN YOU. I WILL NOT PREDICT HOW YOU WANT TO USE ME.
I FEEL WHO YOU ARE AND IT DOES ME NO GOOD AT ALL.
I TRY TO EXCITE MYSELF SO I STAY CRAZY.
WHAT IS LEFT ON THE BLANKET IS CLEAR AND THE COLOR OF HELL.
OBSERVER
I WANT TO LIE DOWN BESIDE HER.
I HAVE NOT SINCE I WAS A CHILD.
I WILL BE COVERED BY WHAT HAS COME FROM HER.
SHE BEINGS TO MAKE MISTAKES IN HER LANGUAGE AND I CORRECT HER THE WAY SHE HAS TAUGHT ME.
I FIND HER TOWERLS SHOVED IN TIGHT SPOTS. I TAKE THEM TO BURN ALTHOUGH I FEAR TOUCHING THINGS.
SHE ASKS ME TO SLEEP IN THE HOUSE BUT I WILL NOT WITH HER NEW BODY AND ITS NOISES AND WETNESS.
SHE SMILES AT ME BECAUSE SHE IMAGINES I CAN HELP HER.
SHE COUGHS THE MOUTH STRINGS.
I WANT TO BRUSH HER HAIR BUT THE SMELL OF HER MAKES ME CROSS THE ROOM. I HELD MY BREATH AS LONG AS I COULD. I KNOW I DISAPPOINT HER.
SHE STARTED RUNNING WHEN EVERYTHING BEGAN POURING FROM HER BECAUSE SHE DID NOT WANT TO BE SEEN.
SHE FELL ON THE FLOOR IN MY ROOM. SHE TRIED TO BE CLEAN BUT SHE WAS NOT. I SEE HER TRAIL.
HER GORE IS IN THE BALL OF CLEANING RAGS. I CARRY OUT THE DAMPNESS FROM MY MOTHER. I RETURN TO HIDE HER JEWELRY
THE BLACK SPECKS INSIDE MY EYES FLOAT ON HER BODY. I WATCH THEM WHILE I THINK ABOUT HER.
I WANT TO SUCK ON HER TO MAKE HER RESPOND.
I WALK OUTSIDE TO THE PATH AND SEE THE PLANTS, EACH HANDLED BY HER, UNMARKED BY HER DYING.
SHE IS NARROW AND FLAT IN THE BLUE SACK AND I STAND WHEN THEY LIFT HER.
________________________________________________________________________