important please read
When your words come too easily for me to believe
and this paint goes on too thinly to peel away
I will find a silver lining, sometime
Blur my vision and I'll be fine - I'll be fine...
Burn the pages in the magazines
I hate the way they look at me
With every smile and every laugh
there's something I will always lack
And maybe, just maybe, an imperfected me will not be seen
when your words burn forever in my mind.
and those greens and those blues seem too perfect to be true,
i will light a fire every time i think to myself, i will be fine, i will be fine.
burn the pages of the magazines, i hate the way they look at me.
with every smile and every laugh, there is something i will always lack, and maybe, just maybe, this beauty will be clearer to me.
----JS
i just wrote an amazing blog, and because myspace hates me it deleted it. but i am going to try to do it again...fuckina....
okay. i just spent the last hour crying my eyes out. why? i don't know. i am not sad or anything. i am just so...good. really. i am. good. i am so happy and content with everything right now. i am only anxious about seeing adam.
i become increasingly more aware of the people around me. and how much of an influence they are on me and my actions and vise versa. i wanted to show some appreciation so that's what i'm going to do. because i wish sometimes that i could be a better person. a better friend. i try. i really do. i want to die a natural death and havea funeral with a thousand people in attendance. but i doubt that's going to happen. i am probablly going to grow old with adam and the 2 of us will be alcoholics who yell at small children...i don't know if i'd mind that.
however there are a few people who realyl truely mean a lot to me and i hope they know it. adam and bryn who are like family to me. dom who is the coolest kid on the block. claire for being like a big sister, you're fucking beautiful claire. melanie for being my inspiration to be strong and have courage, she's one tough cookie and i have so much respect for her it's rediculous. for adam for being the love of my life and my soul mate. a reason for me to feel again. but most importantly to cris who is my brother in arms. my blood. who understands me like no one else can. i love you kid.
this is not goodbye or farewell or a biento. it's just a thank you. because i don't think i do it enough. and i want you all to know i appreciate everything everyone has done for me and i really fucking do. so thank you.
good mourning.
and this paint goes on too thinly to peel away
I will find a silver lining, sometime
Blur my vision and I'll be fine - I'll be fine...
Burn the pages in the magazines
I hate the way they look at me
With every smile and every laugh
there's something I will always lack
And maybe, just maybe, an imperfected me will not be seen
when your words burn forever in my mind.
and those greens and those blues seem too perfect to be true,
i will light a fire every time i think to myself, i will be fine, i will be fine.
burn the pages of the magazines, i hate the way they look at me.
with every smile and every laugh, there is something i will always lack, and maybe, just maybe, this beauty will be clearer to me.
----JS
i just wrote an amazing blog, and because myspace hates me it deleted it. but i am going to try to do it again...fuckina....
okay. i just spent the last hour crying my eyes out. why? i don't know. i am not sad or anything. i am just so...good. really. i am. good. i am so happy and content with everything right now. i am only anxious about seeing adam.
i become increasingly more aware of the people around me. and how much of an influence they are on me and my actions and vise versa. i wanted to show some appreciation so that's what i'm going to do. because i wish sometimes that i could be a better person. a better friend. i try. i really do. i want to die a natural death and havea funeral with a thousand people in attendance. but i doubt that's going to happen. i am probablly going to grow old with adam and the 2 of us will be alcoholics who yell at small children...i don't know if i'd mind that.
however there are a few people who realyl truely mean a lot to me and i hope they know it. adam and bryn who are like family to me. dom who is the coolest kid on the block. claire for being like a big sister, you're fucking beautiful claire. melanie for being my inspiration to be strong and have courage, she's one tough cookie and i have so much respect for her it's rediculous. for adam for being the love of my life and my soul mate. a reason for me to feel again. but most importantly to cris who is my brother in arms. my blood. who understands me like no one else can. i love you kid.
this is not goodbye or farewell or a biento. it's just a thank you. because i don't think i do it enough. and i want you all to know i appreciate everything everyone has done for me and i really fucking do. so thank you.
good mourning.