alone
26/10/07 // 9.45pm
Okay so i know this is cheating, haha, but im not writing this on the day im posting it. Im in Driffield at the moment sat on Sarahs couch babysitting, watching 8mile and having a fag waiting for a few hours before she gets back from work. I know i said i wasnt coming through but i guess i was wrong, shows what i know. Dunny gave me a ring and we got chatting, figures i was pissed so he thought it'd be nice to bring me through, plus we havent talked in MONTHS and we missed each other so we could have a chat too ^.^ Didnt get through here till about 10pm then after a while i went out for a quick pint with Matty an Andy, it was a quick pint too, i had a 11.30 curfew -_- gay. It was nice to see Andy cos i havent seen him in a while too, not too fussed about Matty cos iv been seeing him more latley, but it was great to see him.
Spent Thursday and Friday night at Andy and Clares with Matty aswell, think im gonna give him some space though, it wouldnt be as bad if i did see him a lot but because we live so far away its hard and when i do see him im too clingy and i know i am.
It was weird this morning going back to Andys with him not being there, it always is, felt a bit lonley but i fell asleep and didnt get up till 1, then after a quick tidy up i went to see Sarah, she was boring so i went back to andys again at 4 for a couple of hours to see how he was doing.
I recon Clares gonna try and get me with someone else tomorow night, she wants me to dress slaggy, like i used to before i met matty, but i dont really want anyone else anymore. I used to go out every weekend, and get battered and flirt with anything that moved, i just dont feel the need too. im wearing a fucking long necked top and its Friday for fucks sake, this time last year id have my boobs out or wouldnt be going anywhere! I dunno what id do without him but i might have to soon, its gonna suck balls.
Figures Clares maybe just trying to stop me getting hurt like she did but she's too late, iv been hurt so much now its more like a dull buzzing in the background, white noise. Iv stopped caring, stopped been shocked when he rips me up.
I need to sort my life out its a mess, a massive mess, but i DO have a plan. woohoo. Anyway id better go Toms coming round with Chucky to watch, to keep me company cos im bored shitless. later,
Morphine x
Okay so i know this is cheating, haha, but im not writing this on the day im posting it. Im in Driffield at the moment sat on Sarahs couch babysitting, watching 8mile and having a fag waiting for a few hours before she gets back from work. I know i said i wasnt coming through but i guess i was wrong, shows what i know. Dunny gave me a ring and we got chatting, figures i was pissed so he thought it'd be nice to bring me through, plus we havent talked in MONTHS and we missed each other so we could have a chat too ^.^ Didnt get through here till about 10pm then after a while i went out for a quick pint with Matty an Andy, it was a quick pint too, i had a 11.30 curfew -_- gay. It was nice to see Andy cos i havent seen him in a while too, not too fussed about Matty cos iv been seeing him more latley, but it was great to see him.
Spent Thursday and Friday night at Andy and Clares with Matty aswell, think im gonna give him some space though, it wouldnt be as bad if i did see him a lot but because we live so far away its hard and when i do see him im too clingy and i know i am.
It was weird this morning going back to Andys with him not being there, it always is, felt a bit lonley but i fell asleep and didnt get up till 1, then after a quick tidy up i went to see Sarah, she was boring so i went back to andys again at 4 for a couple of hours to see how he was doing.
I recon Clares gonna try and get me with someone else tomorow night, she wants me to dress slaggy, like i used to before i met matty, but i dont really want anyone else anymore. I used to go out every weekend, and get battered and flirt with anything that moved, i just dont feel the need too. im wearing a fucking long necked top and its Friday for fucks sake, this time last year id have my boobs out or wouldnt be going anywhere! I dunno what id do without him but i might have to soon, its gonna suck balls.
Figures Clares maybe just trying to stop me getting hurt like she did but she's too late, iv been hurt so much now its more like a dull buzzing in the background, white noise. Iv stopped caring, stopped been shocked when he rips me up.
I need to sort my life out its a mess, a massive mess, but i DO have a plan. woohoo. Anyway id better go Toms coming round with Chucky to watch, to keep me company cos im bored shitless. later,
Morphine x