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how come writing a three page paper (+ two more pages for the appendices), DOUBLE SPACED, is so hard to do???
i just have to apply a simple theory to a client situation i've had in the hospital. but i can't do it. ARGH. frustrated..... only because this should be easy. maybe i should just nap, sleep it out, then start out fresh tomorrow? i wish i wasn't working tomorrow so i could just think more critically about what i want to do with this paper. oh theory, i can't wait to get rid of you!
then i have another paper due next week about a different client situation and how i approach them to effectively communicate and how i develop a helping relationship. gag. Bullshit papers are hard to write when there's no right or wrong answer.. i have to figure out when i'm meeting up with my group too so we can start filming our skit (since we don't want to act in front of the class). and i have to figure out how i'm going to catch up and study acute before the next big test... so i don't almost fail like the last time. i have to get cracking on everything....... sighhhhh.
the only super easy part of my week is being in the hospital. i'm getting a hang of Cardiology and all those meds. i've been hanging IV's and administering IV meds, though it scared me at first since i'm directly infusing medication into people's veins. i haven't had the chance to start another IV yet, but things have slowed down a bit. there are no dressings to do. a lot of it is just monitoring heart status and reading rhythm strips. some of the medications are a interesting to learn. the best part is finally understanding why we learned all the "petty" lab values and how it's connected to how the patient is presenting. i feel like a detective lol. anyway i told my instructor i was considering home-care and she was completely baffled. I interpreted her reaction to be that i'm capable of practicing in an acute setting but i just don't know. i like being busy and seeing interesting things, but i think i'll burn out quickly. my plan is to do some sort of acute nursing as a start. then i'll move into home-care so i could have a more consistent work schedule. plus i like the idea of bringing care into the home instead of focusing on hospital interventions. mmm anyway, our instructor said she'll have us spend a day or two in ER since Cardiology can be a little on the slow side. She wants us to see the team act when codes are in progress and all the hustle-and-bustle that goes around. it'd be cool to watch. maybe this might change my mind?
on friday i had lunch with my instructor, her coworker, and a few peers of mine. they talked about patients they've had (without names of course or distinctive details) and i spaced out quite a bit. i had this sudden thought about gin's dad. i wondered if they were there that day when everything happened. i wondered if they had done enough or whether they had given it all they had to save him. i was so consumed with these thoughts that i think my instructor caught on. i didn't realize i was walked behind the pack of people we were with as we were making our way up back to the floor. i kept catching her glance back at me in my peripheral vision, so i caught up to everyone and faked my laughter to swat away any suspicion that something was "off". i don't know, i guess feeling like this is warranted. i'm sure his family wonders the same thing. although things are "better" at their home, i suppose learning about the efforts the ER personal could give them a little bit more peace of mind.
i just have to apply a simple theory to a client situation i've had in the hospital. but i can't do it. ARGH. frustrated..... only because this should be easy. maybe i should just nap, sleep it out, then start out fresh tomorrow? i wish i wasn't working tomorrow so i could just think more critically about what i want to do with this paper. oh theory, i can't wait to get rid of you!
then i have another paper due next week about a different client situation and how i approach them to effectively communicate and how i develop a helping relationship. gag. Bullshit papers are hard to write when there's no right or wrong answer.. i have to figure out when i'm meeting up with my group too so we can start filming our skit (since we don't want to act in front of the class). and i have to figure out how i'm going to catch up and study acute before the next big test... so i don't almost fail like the last time. i have to get cracking on everything....... sighhhhh.
the only super easy part of my week is being in the hospital. i'm getting a hang of Cardiology and all those meds. i've been hanging IV's and administering IV meds, though it scared me at first since i'm directly infusing medication into people's veins. i haven't had the chance to start another IV yet, but things have slowed down a bit. there are no dressings to do. a lot of it is just monitoring heart status and reading rhythm strips. some of the medications are a interesting to learn. the best part is finally understanding why we learned all the "petty" lab values and how it's connected to how the patient is presenting. i feel like a detective lol. anyway i told my instructor i was considering home-care and she was completely baffled. I interpreted her reaction to be that i'm capable of practicing in an acute setting but i just don't know. i like being busy and seeing interesting things, but i think i'll burn out quickly. my plan is to do some sort of acute nursing as a start. then i'll move into home-care so i could have a more consistent work schedule. plus i like the idea of bringing care into the home instead of focusing on hospital interventions. mmm anyway, our instructor said she'll have us spend a day or two in ER since Cardiology can be a little on the slow side. She wants us to see the team act when codes are in progress and all the hustle-and-bustle that goes around. it'd be cool to watch. maybe this might change my mind?
on friday i had lunch with my instructor, her coworker, and a few peers of mine. they talked about patients they've had (without names of course or distinctive details) and i spaced out quite a bit. i had this sudden thought about gin's dad. i wondered if they were there that day when everything happened. i wondered if they had done enough or whether they had given it all they had to save him. i was so consumed with these thoughts that i think my instructor caught on. i didn't realize i was walked behind the pack of people we were with as we were making our way up back to the floor. i kept catching her glance back at me in my peripheral vision, so i caught up to everyone and faked my laughter to swat away any suspicion that something was "off". i don't know, i guess feeling like this is warranted. i'm sure his family wonders the same thing. although things are "better" at their home, i suppose learning about the efforts the ER personal could give them a little bit more peace of mind.