one more start, one more fucked up story about noone any one cares about

[before_i_fell]

the sad thing is i know ill never be coolanuff.. or even just "me"anuff for anything plesent to happen! ill rot like any one else and go no where but mandurah.... i dont blame this on the town i blame it on me and my inablity to fuckin control even where i live... even where i fuckin part my hair! i want to be some one! but any thing i try i fail at, every ones good at one thing right ??? whats mine? mieka will say i make her smile... then reads shit like this and myspace and all she can say is.. wow brett i hardly know you.. dose any one know me? do i really give a flying fuck what ppl think of me ? yes i fuckin do and it drives me insane every day and i wish just wish i had the courage to slit my wrist, maybe then ppl would stop and say fuck i didnt even know that sorry cunt! i wish for a best friend, ryhda is close... sally is close... but all i want from sally at the moment is.... nothing really... just nothing...
funnly i just want to learn to be alone too.. i mean... as reberter sparrow told donny.. all living things on this earth die alone!

conrrete is warmer than me today