so mix it

[before_i_fell]

this is the part where i spill my guts to alls viewing... but i cant find them, the nights are cold and the days short and im now where closer to where i wanna be, im just passing time and really acomplishing any thing or improving the quality of this life ive been given, im to picky and to lazy and close minded to really know any one for who they are or give a shit about the, but i always care what they say.

some one told me to forget about the things that bring me down , but that just give me more reason to be empty, and if i knew what they where i would deal with them, thats the problem i have no idea why i feel....

to discribe it best, im a shadow, i have no form or perpose, im 2 dimentional and see though im cold and hollow,

i say this and i know some ppl are going to try help, dont do that, its not good for business, im typeing this to try makes sence of me, im say thing to give myself a psyhical form.. although it be on a screen, i wanna help my self

is there a medical term for this besides emo?

FUCK im not emo.. emos actuly think they are hard done by.... im just not done by... i have no reason too whinge, so i wont do it in public

all i want is a girl.... girls stay away im not working in the head yet

i fuckin lost my wallet