it's a scary thought
This whole mental health thing is really scaring me--SOO much. I have cried everyday during it and i don't know why. It makes me wonder. Your mind is supposed to be yours. How can it slip away or trick you into things? And then how do u know that something is wrong with your mind when it's YOUR MIND and it's YOU pretty much. That's gotta be so hard to accept. Then with the video today i was even more scared. That guy looked so normal and like such a happy, popular guy. If it could happen to him, it could happen to anyone.
What if we all have a minor case of a mental illness just waiting to explode into something major?
No. That can't be.
Or can it...
All through these talks, my mind would be like "omg, i might have that!" but then all of a sudden i like kinda snap out of those thoughts and be like "wow what are you doing, you're perfectly normal u idiot!"
But what if i didn't have that handy feature of flipping back to the "nothing's wrong Beth"?
Would I slip into some serious mental illness?
Is that how others get mental illnesses? By not having the flipping back feature?
That flipping back feature is always gonna be there for me, right? it can't go away. i'm not a crazy person. but if i lose this feature, would i become one?
Some of you who read will be like "wow, she's deep...and this makes me think"
But others will be like "blah, blah, blah,...more livejournal drama...get a life u're perfectly FINE"
Is that how people look at all our livejournal entries?
We all need a place to vent, because the more that's bottled up, the more that things stay deep in ur mind and come back to haunt us later. So i think livejournals are great. We get to say how we feel and put it out there for comments from friends, or even from anonymous people, that help us deal with what we're trying to say. A lot of entries from everyone's journals are serious and often sad cuz it's the one place where we can put those ideas out. A diary isn't really the same because that's private and we all truly want to tell people about our problems. This is a way to tell people without TELLING them. It's great.
What if we all have a minor case of a mental illness just waiting to explode into something major?
No. That can't be.
Or can it...
All through these talks, my mind would be like "omg, i might have that!" but then all of a sudden i like kinda snap out of those thoughts and be like "wow what are you doing, you're perfectly normal u idiot!"
But what if i didn't have that handy feature of flipping back to the "nothing's wrong Beth"?
Would I slip into some serious mental illness?
Is that how others get mental illnesses? By not having the flipping back feature?
That flipping back feature is always gonna be there for me, right? it can't go away. i'm not a crazy person. but if i lose this feature, would i become one?
Some of you who read will be like "wow, she's deep...and this makes me think"
But others will be like "blah, blah, blah,...more livejournal drama...get a life u're perfectly FINE"
Is that how people look at all our livejournal entries?
We all need a place to vent, because the more that's bottled up, the more that things stay deep in ur mind and come back to haunt us later. So i think livejournals are great. We get to say how we feel and put it out there for comments from friends, or even from anonymous people, that help us deal with what we're trying to say. A lot of entries from everyone's journals are serious and often sad cuz it's the one place where we can put those ideas out. A diary isn't really the same because that's private and we all truly want to tell people about our problems. This is a way to tell people without TELLING them. It's great.