To whom it may concern.
I hate being ignored and/or blown off while trying to defend myself.
You believed everything people told you without approaching me about it.
You let if fester for a year and a half. Thinking I really did say and do all those horrible things when I didn't.
And now that I am trying to explain myself you aren't even giving me a chance. Are you?
You say that I've 'snapped at you' one too many times.
Kind of hard to do when I have barely spoken to you in a year and a half. And whenever I did I had nothing but nice things to say.
Now you've taken something I meant in a completely harmless way and snapped at me.
I wouldn't care so much that I've probably already lost you if I really did do all that horrible shit. If I did even HALF of the things you said I did then I would have done it and not given a flying fuck if you found out or that you hate me.
But I do care. I care a lot. Especially because I didn't do anything you think I did.
You were important to me.
And it upsets me that we got as close as we did, you believed everything they told you, and you just dropped me like that. Without even a word. You never once spoke to me about it. You left me in the dark not knowing what the hell was going on.
Maybe I am the only one that doesn't let what I hear about people from others effect the way I perceive them.
I've heard that you're a spoiled brat. I've heard that your parents pay for everything. I've heard that you're a cam whore. I've heard that you get ass hurt when you're not the center of attention. I've heard that your ego is so big it should have it's own area code.
And I could go on with a lot worse things then that..
But I never let any of that judge how I perceived you. I didn't beileve any of it. I am not going to let someone just make me hate you. Whether I heard it from someone we both knew or from a stranger.
I won't deny I have done my share of general trash talking in the past.
But so have you. And I've heard it first hand.
So why was me doing it so different? Cause I may have made the comment about someone we both knew instead of total strangers? Does that justify it and make it okay? Because we didn't know them?
No. It doesn't.
I just... don't understand.
Any of it.
Comments disabled.
Because no one really knows what this is about.
Except one person. And you probably won't read it anyway.
Consider this a vent page.
Needed to get this out of my head.
You believed everything people told you without approaching me about it.
You let if fester for a year and a half. Thinking I really did say and do all those horrible things when I didn't.
And now that I am trying to explain myself you aren't even giving me a chance. Are you?
You say that I've 'snapped at you' one too many times.
Kind of hard to do when I have barely spoken to you in a year and a half. And whenever I did I had nothing but nice things to say.
Now you've taken something I meant in a completely harmless way and snapped at me.
I wouldn't care so much that I've probably already lost you if I really did do all that horrible shit. If I did even HALF of the things you said I did then I would have done it and not given a flying fuck if you found out or that you hate me.
But I do care. I care a lot. Especially because I didn't do anything you think I did.
You were important to me.
And it upsets me that we got as close as we did, you believed everything they told you, and you just dropped me like that. Without even a word. You never once spoke to me about it. You left me in the dark not knowing what the hell was going on.
Maybe I am the only one that doesn't let what I hear about people from others effect the way I perceive them.
I've heard that you're a spoiled brat. I've heard that your parents pay for everything. I've heard that you're a cam whore. I've heard that you get ass hurt when you're not the center of attention. I've heard that your ego is so big it should have it's own area code.
And I could go on with a lot worse things then that..
But I never let any of that judge how I perceived you. I didn't beileve any of it. I am not going to let someone just make me hate you. Whether I heard it from someone we both knew or from a stranger.
I won't deny I have done my share of general trash talking in the past.
But so have you. And I've heard it first hand.
So why was me doing it so different? Cause I may have made the comment about someone we both knew instead of total strangers? Does that justify it and make it okay? Because we didn't know them?
No. It doesn't.
I just... don't understand.
Any of it.
Comments disabled.
Because no one really knows what this is about.
Except one person. And you probably won't read it anyway.
Consider this a vent page.
Needed to get this out of my head.