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[beezeswims]

i miss the smell of chlorine mixed with banana boat and the feeling of the sun on my sweat soaked skin. i miss laughing kids and freeze pops, and papa johns pizza in the middle of days that seemed like would never end. and then they did and i miss them. i miss the way kids would scream, and parents would yell, and the way we would be so tired and so frusterated that any minute we could pop. i miss the end of the day the goodbyes and the walking to my car and the quiet drive with the a/c whirling and knowing that i had the rest of the night to spend sitting by another pool where the smells were the same, and the kids would laugh, and the freeze pops would be replaced with water ice, but the kids would still scream, and the parents would still yell, and the guards were always on the edge of a breakdown, and no matter what happened and no matter how old i got it would still feel like home.

i miss everything about the summer. i miss the way the sky would get dark and sarah and i would text and pray for thunder, always hoping for the rain storms that never seemed to occur at the right time. i miss the days when the sky would open up and it would pour leaving us soaked down to the skin. i miss the laughter that would occur after an 8 hour day in the sunlight with the prospect of another one the next day, and the stress of heat stroked kids, and health inspectors with no chemicals and no chlorine.

ugh i love the fall but looking at the calender breaks my heart because memorial day is so fucking far away.