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Three weeks ago I confidently told the Noyce Scholarship people that I had a better handle on things and expected my GPA would improve.
Instead it fell.
I was expecting a B or C in Vector calc, got a D. No idea why. Similarly, my calculations of my posted grades in Physics showed that I had a 75% which is amazing for a physics course, and according to the syllabus 74%-86% is a B. I got a C. Had I believed that this was a danger I would have pointed out that I have turned in lab reports for every week of the semester, but have no score for one of them, but I figured it didn't much matter.
Meanwhile, my advanced lab course, the one that took 50 hours a week of my time by itself posted a surprising B whereas I was worried that I might not even pass. Unfortunately the course isn't worth enough credits for that to matter.
According to the grade calculator, It would require 21 units of A grades to get back up to a 3.0. This is effectively impossible since even when I have a thorough understanding of a subject, my ability to demonstrate that understanding at best earns a low B.
Part of the problem is that I don't really give these numbers much credence. I know that they're ridiculously arbitrary and hardly an adequate representation of how hard I work or how much I learn.
But It's been increasingly hard not to suffer the consequences of the fact that other people do assume these numbers reflect something inherently lazy in my character. How else could someone so smart perform so poorly?
Instead it fell.
I was expecting a B or C in Vector calc, got a D. No idea why. Similarly, my calculations of my posted grades in Physics showed that I had a 75% which is amazing for a physics course, and according to the syllabus 74%-86% is a B. I got a C. Had I believed that this was a danger I would have pointed out that I have turned in lab reports for every week of the semester, but have no score for one of them, but I figured it didn't much matter.
Meanwhile, my advanced lab course, the one that took 50 hours a week of my time by itself posted a surprising B whereas I was worried that I might not even pass. Unfortunately the course isn't worth enough credits for that to matter.
According to the grade calculator, It would require 21 units of A grades to get back up to a 3.0. This is effectively impossible since even when I have a thorough understanding of a subject, my ability to demonstrate that understanding at best earns a low B.
Part of the problem is that I don't really give these numbers much credence. I know that they're ridiculously arbitrary and hardly an adequate representation of how hard I work or how much I learn.
But It's been increasingly hard not to suffer the consequences of the fact that other people do assume these numbers reflect something inherently lazy in my character. How else could someone so smart perform so poorly?