Fanmix: Tether (X-Men, Illyana/Kitty)
I would like to follow up on my last gay X-Men fanmix with two more gay X-Men fanmixes. :T Don't be surprised if I'm posting a Kitty/Rachel mix a year from now! [hashtag kitty and her harem of girlfriends]
^MS Paint coming through again!
Tether: An Illyana-POV Katyana Mix
This fanmix has been in the works since August, when I'd had crazy sustained Katyana feelings for too long and kept hearing songs that would remind me of them as characters and them together. "Beggin for Thread" had been my first Illyana song, so I started there and the playlist grew from that. Track order is always one of the hardest parts of making fanmixes for me -- wanting the songs to flow while also providing a sense of narrative. For this mix, I wanted songs that were sexy but also dark and twisty, just like Illyana. There is also a hearty helping of angst, which was inevitable I suppose when it comes to these two characters. :T For Illyana, in my headcanon, what starts as fun and sexy feelings for Kitty quickly morphs into something much deeper, which is trouble when the universe seems committed to keeping these two apart, one way or another (death, de-aging, trapped in a giant bullet in space, Kitty dating other people, etc.). In my headcanon, Illyana has always only had eyes for Kitty, while Kitty dearly loves Illyana but also has feelings for and dates a number of other people, to Illyana's chagrin. The ending of this mix isn't completely optimistic, but check out my companion Kitty-POV mix for a fluffier interpretation of this relationship. :3 Enjoy!!
1. Curbstomp - Meg Myers
I'm a shadow, I'm a creeper
Want forgiveness, getting weaker
I'm addicted to the fever
Let go, I'm ready for it
Let go, I'm ready
Blood, I want it
Giving up the fight
Blood, I want it
Lay me down tonight
Blood, I want it
Take me to the sky
Blood, I want it
Everything's alright now
2. Lean On - Major Lazer feat. MO & DJ Snake
What will we do when we get old
Will we walk down the same road
Will you be there by my side
Standing strong as the waves roll over
When the nights are long
Longing for you to come home
All around the wind blows
We would only hold on to let go
3. Satellite Mind - Metric
I can feel you most when I'm alone
I can feel your ghost when I'm alone
Coming home 'cause I want to
Hang out with a starlet
Stare up at the ceiling
Hiding and revealing
Flashback of a feeling
Sick sense of a calling
Heard you fuck through the wall
I heard you fuck, when I'm bored
I send vibrations in your direction
From the satellite mind
4. Irresistible - Fall Out Boy
Coming in unannounced, drag my nails on the tile
I just followed your scent, you can just follow my smile
All of your flaws are aligned with this mood of mine
Cutting me to the bone, nothing left to leave behind
You ought to keep me concealed just like I was a weapon
I didn't come for a fight but I will fight ‘til the end
And this one might be a battle, might not turn out okay
You know you look so Seattle, but you feel so LA
5. Closer - Tegan and Sara
All you think of lately is getting underneath me
All I dream of lately is how to get you underneath me
Here comes the heat before we meet a little bit closer
Here comes the spark before the dark, come a little closer
It's not just all physical
I'm the type who won't get oh so critical
So let's make things physical
I won't treat you like you're oh so typical
6. Feel Me - Krewella
No more waiting, baby, take it 'til you lose your fucking mind
I can feel you on my skin and I am slowly going blind
And your touch is like the only thing that I will ever need
Sink your teeth into my veins until my heart is on your sleeve
You feel me, I feel you
I need to know the taste that's on your lips
And I see only you
'Cause no one's ever touched me there like this
7. Aviation High - Semi Precious Weapons
I find myself counting the days
I find myself counting your lashes
I think I memorized your face
But then again who hasn't
Moments when you say what you should
Moments when you say something better
It feels so good I wish you would
Keep on saying never forever
8. The Shade - Metric
The embers of a fire still burning as they die
Stay bright to keep us side by side
Baby, there's no better time
No better time, baby, we can't find
With eternal love, the stars above
All there is and ever was
I want it all, I want it all
I want it all, I want it all
A blade of grass, a grain of sand
The moonlit sea, to hold your hand
I want it all, I want it all
I want it all, I want it all
9. Beggin For Thread - Banks
So I got edges that scratch
And sometimes I don't got a filter
But I'm so tired of eating all of my misspoken words
I know my disposition gets confusing
My disproportionate reactions fuse with my eager state
That's why you wanna come out and play with me
Stooped down and out
You got me beggin’ for thread
To sew this hole up that you ripped in my head
Stupidly think you had it under control
Strapped down to something that you don't understand
Don't know what you were getting yourself into
You should have known
Secretly, I think you knew
10. Torn Apart - Bastille vs. GRADES
I could only be myself with you around
And now there’s nothing left for me to think about
And it hurts like hell to be torn apart
And it hurts like hell to be thrown around
We were born to be together
Torn apart, torn apart
We were born to be together
Torn apart, torn apart
You stepped with a heavy tread and left your mark
Your mark on me
The space you used to fill, it’s now this great black hole
You’re out of sight but not out of my mind
11. Nicotine - Panic! At The Disco
It's better to burn than to fade away
It's better to leave than to be replaced
I'm losing to you, baby, I'm no match
I'm going numb, I've been hijacked
It's a fucking drag
I taste you on my lips and I can't get rid of you
So I say damn your kiss and the awful things you do
12. Figure 8 - Ellie Goulding
Breathe your smoke into my lungs
In the back of a car with you I stare into the sun
Still not too old to die young
But lovers hold on to everything
And lovers hold on to anything
I chase your love around a figure eight
I need you more than I can take
You promise forever and a day
And then you take it all away
13. Tether - CHVRCHES
Where'd you go, you were there by my side
Keep believing it's my turn to hide
In a place where we don't have a prayer
There's a tether that's keeping me there
Trade our places
Take no chances
Bind me 'til my lips are silent
Stay where you are
Ever after
Chasing things that we should run from
14. The Kids Aren’t Alright - Fall Out Boy
And in the end I'd do it all again
I think you're my best friend
Don't you know that the kids aren't alright
And I'm yours, when it rains it pours
Stay thirsty like before
Don't you know that the kids aren't alright
I'm not passive but aggressive
Take note it's not impressive
Empty your sadness like you're dumping your purse
On my bedroom floor, we put your curse in reverse
15. Long & Lost - Florence + The Machine
Lost in the fog, these hollow hills
Blood running hot, night chills
Without your love I'll be
So long and lost, are you missing me
It's been so long between the words we spoke
Will you be there up on the shore, I hope
You wonder why it is that I came home
I figured out where I belong
Listen on Spotify
Listen at 8tracks
Download at Mediafire
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AO3 Post
Companion Mix: Lifeline [Kitty POV]
^MS Paint coming through again!
Tether: An Illyana-POV Katyana Mix
This fanmix has been in the works since August, when I'd had crazy sustained Katyana feelings for too long and kept hearing songs that would remind me of them as characters and them together. "Beggin for Thread" had been my first Illyana song, so I started there and the playlist grew from that. Track order is always one of the hardest parts of making fanmixes for me -- wanting the songs to flow while also providing a sense of narrative. For this mix, I wanted songs that were sexy but also dark and twisty, just like Illyana. There is also a hearty helping of angst, which was inevitable I suppose when it comes to these two characters. :T For Illyana, in my headcanon, what starts as fun and sexy feelings for Kitty quickly morphs into something much deeper, which is trouble when the universe seems committed to keeping these two apart, one way or another (death, de-aging, trapped in a giant bullet in space, Kitty dating other people, etc.). In my headcanon, Illyana has always only had eyes for Kitty, while Kitty dearly loves Illyana but also has feelings for and dates a number of other people, to Illyana's chagrin. The ending of this mix isn't completely optimistic, but check out my companion Kitty-POV mix for a fluffier interpretation of this relationship. :3 Enjoy!!
1. Curbstomp - Meg Myers
I'm a shadow, I'm a creeper
Want forgiveness, getting weaker
I'm addicted to the fever
Let go, I'm ready for it
Let go, I'm ready
Blood, I want it
Giving up the fight
Blood, I want it
Lay me down tonight
Blood, I want it
Take me to the sky
Blood, I want it
Everything's alright now
2. Lean On - Major Lazer feat. MO & DJ Snake
What will we do when we get old
Will we walk down the same road
Will you be there by my side
Standing strong as the waves roll over
When the nights are long
Longing for you to come home
All around the wind blows
We would only hold on to let go
3. Satellite Mind - Metric
I can feel you most when I'm alone
I can feel your ghost when I'm alone
Coming home 'cause I want to
Hang out with a starlet
Stare up at the ceiling
Hiding and revealing
Flashback of a feeling
Sick sense of a calling
Heard you fuck through the wall
I heard you fuck, when I'm bored
I send vibrations in your direction
From the satellite mind
4. Irresistible - Fall Out Boy
Coming in unannounced, drag my nails on the tile
I just followed your scent, you can just follow my smile
All of your flaws are aligned with this mood of mine
Cutting me to the bone, nothing left to leave behind
You ought to keep me concealed just like I was a weapon
I didn't come for a fight but I will fight ‘til the end
And this one might be a battle, might not turn out okay
You know you look so Seattle, but you feel so LA
5. Closer - Tegan and Sara
All you think of lately is getting underneath me
All I dream of lately is how to get you underneath me
Here comes the heat before we meet a little bit closer
Here comes the spark before the dark, come a little closer
It's not just all physical
I'm the type who won't get oh so critical
So let's make things physical
I won't treat you like you're oh so typical
6. Feel Me - Krewella
No more waiting, baby, take it 'til you lose your fucking mind
I can feel you on my skin and I am slowly going blind
And your touch is like the only thing that I will ever need
Sink your teeth into my veins until my heart is on your sleeve
You feel me, I feel you
I need to know the taste that's on your lips
And I see only you
'Cause no one's ever touched me there like this
7. Aviation High - Semi Precious Weapons
I find myself counting the days
I find myself counting your lashes
I think I memorized your face
But then again who hasn't
Moments when you say what you should
Moments when you say something better
It feels so good I wish you would
Keep on saying never forever
8. The Shade - Metric
The embers of a fire still burning as they die
Stay bright to keep us side by side
Baby, there's no better time
No better time, baby, we can't find
With eternal love, the stars above
All there is and ever was
I want it all, I want it all
I want it all, I want it all
A blade of grass, a grain of sand
The moonlit sea, to hold your hand
I want it all, I want it all
I want it all, I want it all
9. Beggin For Thread - Banks
So I got edges that scratch
And sometimes I don't got a filter
But I'm so tired of eating all of my misspoken words
I know my disposition gets confusing
My disproportionate reactions fuse with my eager state
That's why you wanna come out and play with me
Stooped down and out
You got me beggin’ for thread
To sew this hole up that you ripped in my head
Stupidly think you had it under control
Strapped down to something that you don't understand
Don't know what you were getting yourself into
You should have known
Secretly, I think you knew
10. Torn Apart - Bastille vs. GRADES
I could only be myself with you around
And now there’s nothing left for me to think about
And it hurts like hell to be torn apart
And it hurts like hell to be thrown around
We were born to be together
Torn apart, torn apart
We were born to be together
Torn apart, torn apart
You stepped with a heavy tread and left your mark
Your mark on me
The space you used to fill, it’s now this great black hole
You’re out of sight but not out of my mind
11. Nicotine - Panic! At The Disco
It's better to burn than to fade away
It's better to leave than to be replaced
I'm losing to you, baby, I'm no match
I'm going numb, I've been hijacked
It's a fucking drag
I taste you on my lips and I can't get rid of you
So I say damn your kiss and the awful things you do
12. Figure 8 - Ellie Goulding
Breathe your smoke into my lungs
In the back of a car with you I stare into the sun
Still not too old to die young
But lovers hold on to everything
And lovers hold on to anything
I chase your love around a figure eight
I need you more than I can take
You promise forever and a day
And then you take it all away
13. Tether - CHVRCHES
Where'd you go, you were there by my side
Keep believing it's my turn to hide
In a place where we don't have a prayer
There's a tether that's keeping me there
Trade our places
Take no chances
Bind me 'til my lips are silent
Stay where you are
Ever after
Chasing things that we should run from
14. The Kids Aren’t Alright - Fall Out Boy
And in the end I'd do it all again
I think you're my best friend
Don't you know that the kids aren't alright
And I'm yours, when it rains it pours
Stay thirsty like before
Don't you know that the kids aren't alright
I'm not passive but aggressive
Take note it's not impressive
Empty your sadness like you're dumping your purse
On my bedroom floor, we put your curse in reverse
15. Long & Lost - Florence + The Machine
Lost in the fog, these hollow hills
Blood running hot, night chills
Without your love I'll be
So long and lost, are you missing me
It's been so long between the words we spoke
Will you be there up on the shore, I hope
You wonder why it is that I came home
I figured out where I belong
Listen on Spotify
Listen at 8tracks
Download at Mediafire
Tumblr Post
AO3 Post
Companion Mix: Lifeline [Kitty POV]