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I am alone without Kat, and it hurts a lot. It comes to me when I am all alone, because, like always, my friends (and drugs) help me through the lonliness. Ben just wrote something about that in his LJ... but it's just true. We don't want to be alone until we're too old to be naturally alive (your fourties). If she came back east, I would just do anything that she wanted to do - it feels like I'm getting desperate.
Friends are fun to make. Sometimes I worry that I will bore people (xbf) to death because I am just much more talkative with people that I've known for a while, than people that I've just met. I've noticed that very dedicated people do that, but those that aren't looking for any sort of respect for anyone (and I don't want to say it's one or the other... I know that there are as many exceptions as there are my example) are very much more straight forward. Maybe that's why I try to be like that instead of not.
Last night (day? night?) I actually stayed up with the kids (tim, heather, ashley, issac-i-am-very-cute, etc) until dawn (and until about five pm the next day) just "hangin' out" which is very unusual for me. I was glad for the time out of the house, and in a pool (too much natural water made me miss the chlorine - believe it or not!), and in the ol' huntin' grounds.
I'm going to watch TV. I am being destroyed by my visit here... capitalism is consuming me! I'm watching TV, buying beer, unneccesary parts for my bicycle, FOOD!, GAS!, and I'm getting a job. I'm just a hypocrit, but don't think that I will enjoy it as much as not working. It's an amazing thing that empowers the soul - not working.
I shouldn't write so much when I know that all of my friends are ADD or ADHD, but it's how I roll.
Friends are fun to make. Sometimes I worry that I will bore people (xbf) to death because I am just much more talkative with people that I've known for a while, than people that I've just met. I've noticed that very dedicated people do that, but those that aren't looking for any sort of respect for anyone (and I don't want to say it's one or the other... I know that there are as many exceptions as there are my example) are very much more straight forward. Maybe that's why I try to be like that instead of not.
Last night (day? night?) I actually stayed up with the kids (tim, heather, ashley, issac-i-am-very-cute, etc) until dawn (and until about five pm the next day) just "hangin' out" which is very unusual for me. I was glad for the time out of the house, and in a pool (too much natural water made me miss the chlorine - believe it or not!), and in the ol' huntin' grounds.
I'm going to watch TV. I am being destroyed by my visit here... capitalism is consuming me! I'm watching TV, buying beer, unneccesary parts for my bicycle, FOOD!, GAS!, and I'm getting a job. I'm just a hypocrit, but don't think that I will enjoy it as much as not working. It's an amazing thing that empowers the soul - not working.
I shouldn't write so much when I know that all of my friends are ADD or ADHD, but it's how I roll.