Should I have talked to her?
Should I have stopped her there on the sidewalk, icy wind shrugging our heads down into our jackets. Snow catching in her hair as she stared on past me at the rest of the street.
Should I have spoken? "Hey. You probably don't remember me, but we went to school together. Had a few classes together, actually. Math 20 Pure. I sat up at the front with Kevin Dennis near the fire escape so we could cut through the football field and get to the parking lot quicker. Physics 20, too. I flunked out of that one though. Hardly went. You gave me a ride home once or twice, too."
Should I have confided in her the truth of the matter? "The reason I never really paid attention to you in high school was because of my mom. Our parents know each other, and she kept trying to force me onto you. If you ask her out today, I'll get you a satellite dish. I don't want to be bought by my mother. But now she's given up to let me live my own life... for the most part."
Should I have given up on insecurity? Suggested coffee, and catching up on the past two years? But what could I have contributed? I had a 9-month relationship that ended with two broken hearts; had a high-paying shit-job; then ended with a year worth of low-paying great job and free rentals. What would she say?
She looked at me and saw just another face...
Should I have spoken? "Hey. You probably don't remember me, but we went to school together. Had a few classes together, actually. Math 20 Pure. I sat up at the front with Kevin Dennis near the fire escape so we could cut through the football field and get to the parking lot quicker. Physics 20, too. I flunked out of that one though. Hardly went. You gave me a ride home once or twice, too."
Should I have confided in her the truth of the matter? "The reason I never really paid attention to you in high school was because of my mom. Our parents know each other, and she kept trying to force me onto you. If you ask her out today, I'll get you a satellite dish. I don't want to be bought by my mother. But now she's given up to let me live my own life... for the most part."
Should I have given up on insecurity? Suggested coffee, and catching up on the past two years? But what could I have contributed? I had a 9-month relationship that ended with two broken hearts; had a high-paying shit-job; then ended with a year worth of low-paying great job and free rentals. What would she say?
She looked at me and saw just another face...