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Quiet day here. It doesn't feel like Thanksgiving, since I am making the traditional dinner tomorrow. My brother has to work tomorrow morning, and if we had it today, he would have had to go home...so since I selfishly want him and my nephew to hang around a day or 2 (plus it's not Thanksgiving if you eat a big meal and have to get in the car and drive 2 hours). I held off getting any of my groceries (except for the turkey) until today. I couldn't believe the store I shop at was going to be open 7 - 3 today! I got there around 9:45 and my worst fears were unfounded. There was plenty of everything to be had (except pie crust, I got the LAST box) and it wasn't crowded at all. $250.00 later! Oh my god, that is like my whole food budget for the month! lol. Oh well. I bought other stuff too besides thanksgiving fixins. I have a cheesecake in the oven now. Then I will make a pumpkin pie, and a chocolate pie for the kids (wicked easy - I buy an Oreo pie crust already in the pan. 2 boxes of instant pudding and pie filling. Pour that in the pie crust. Chill. Apply Cool Whip. Done!). It is a tradition I started when nephew was a little boy, because it was something easy he could make with me! My brother's wife moved out last weekend. They are divorcing, and she is so messed up right now that I can't even feel angry at her for what she is doing. I am worried about her. I am worried about nephew. Brother will be fine, he is in a good place. I am THANKFUL to have him in my life. Me, him, and are kids are all there is of our blood family. Oh, an uncle on the west coast we hear from like once a year, and a few cousins we never hear from. I used to envy people with big families, but I have to say, there is just as much love in this little family of mine. He and I "get" each other. I can tell him something about how I experience life, or myself, and he will say "me too" in that tone of voice that says "wow, I thought I Was the only one who felt like that". We are very affirming of each other. And we have so much FUN!! Oh my, we LAUGH and make fun of each other and anyone around us can't help but get caught up in our laughter. It's good that we can laugh about our past. We both had miserable childhoods. We are 9 years apart. He did the first 9 years on his own, then I came along. He had to pretty much take care of me. Then, he left home when I was 7, and I had to deal with the family dysfunction on my own. But, he was always there for me, just a phone call away.
I am also thankful for the last 3 Thanksgivings that I got to spend tucked away up in the mountains with Patty. They were magical. Well, last year was tough. Not going there. Funny, the whole time I was there I thought, this is the last time we are ever going to be here together. This year, I have no idea what she is doing. We have not been in touch at all, she asked for space, and the last time I called her she was pissed that I did, so...I hope she is happy, whatever she is doing.
I hope all my friends here are safe and warm and happy and eating lots of turkey!!!
I am also thankful for the last 3 Thanksgivings that I got to spend tucked away up in the mountains with Patty. They were magical. Well, last year was tough. Not going there. Funny, the whole time I was there I thought, this is the last time we are ever going to be here together. This year, I have no idea what she is doing. We have not been in touch at all, she asked for space, and the last time I called her she was pissed that I did, so...I hope she is happy, whatever she is doing.
I hope all my friends here are safe and warm and happy and eating lots of turkey!!!