i need some help...

[beehindblueyes]

k im FINALLY updating. ya know life can REALLY suck sometimes. i thought i was doin better about my self confidence ... not really. this shouldnt be affecting me this way but it is and its really sad. i honestly thought i was alright. i learned to like myself but i guess its all new still and this is a really big ... hit to me. it annoys me that its this big of a deal and i think thats some of the problem. but like justin said...its the little things that mean the most...good and bad. so im workin on it and tomorrow is gonna be my down time day. me and ash are gonna hang out at her house and watch chick flicks and cry until we have to go to work. some down time with me and her will be good for both of us. phillips gonna laugh at us when we go in all puffy eyed and stuff lol. but its all good

to ashlie, rosie, sonnie, drake, and justin:

im sitting here thinking about the pasr,
hoping in the future our friendship will last.
we have been friends for a short period of time.
and been through a lot, even so, we're just fine.

ive seen lots of people come and go,
saying and doing whatever--careless, you know?
that's why your friendship means so much to me.
when im with you, i feel secure, whole, and so free.

free from those who won't be around,
when times get tough, and i am down.
you'll be there for me an dunderstand how i feel,
because we both know our friendship is real.

Peggy Nunziata

i know ive been really moody lately but i still love u guys soo much and my life wouldnt be the same with out you in it.