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been awhile, but you've been on my mind. more than you'd know.
took a couple pictures of binx today while he sunned himself, and that more than anything else pulled me away and back. feeling an ache to get back to just what i didnt want before. i have carved myself out, and there i am.
it's not to say i dont enjoy today and these past months but well i am like a turtle as was recently confirm; i do things that way.
so the current barely approachable topic is - how can i request more space. and so many questions come from that. what i intend is not a swipe, but rather just the chair i sit in. i dont want to create a scene, dontcha know, but creating is exactly what i want to do. i take the bits, form them into a whiffle ball and need to work from there.
and you have been forgiving i know, and i think i've been a bit manipulative... i play for everything.
i need a shave, and i still look young. a car. a new license (anyone been to the NJ dmv?). sometimes i think my youthful looks reflect my inability to properly grasp things i should have years ago, or like that. comprehension etched like an eye reflects the soul.
i do want the things i've said, and we all dream. dreaming is what? dreaming cuts across talking landscrapes like something noble, but i'm just not so sure. let's be realistic as is said so often these days.
really i think i've just been beat down by costs lately. that's one pressure. been a kite tied down.
yeah yeah, i know.. make up your mind.
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took a couple pictures of binx today while he sunned himself, and that more than anything else pulled me away and back. feeling an ache to get back to just what i didnt want before. i have carved myself out, and there i am.
it's not to say i dont enjoy today and these past months but well i am like a turtle as was recently confirm; i do things that way.
so the current barely approachable topic is - how can i request more space. and so many questions come from that. what i intend is not a swipe, but rather just the chair i sit in. i dont want to create a scene, dontcha know, but creating is exactly what i want to do. i take the bits, form them into a whiffle ball and need to work from there.
and you have been forgiving i know, and i think i've been a bit manipulative... i play for everything.
i need a shave, and i still look young. a car. a new license (anyone been to the NJ dmv?). sometimes i think my youthful looks reflect my inability to properly grasp things i should have years ago, or like that. comprehension etched like an eye reflects the soul.
i do want the things i've said, and we all dream. dreaming is what? dreaming cuts across talking landscrapes like something noble, but i'm just not so sure. let's be realistic as is said so often these days.
really i think i've just been beat down by costs lately. that's one pressure. been a kite tied down.
yeah yeah, i know.. make up your mind.
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Now playing: Elliott Smith - A Silver Chain (Demo Mix)
via FoxyTunes