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[beef_stew]

been major upset mo lately, but its not all times, it just comes over me and the floodworks happen id say it was hard to explain it but i know what gets to me, i dont feel as if i am part of that any more, the three of us from long ago, they always have each other and now they have all these other times as well and im just not there anymore, like a third wheel, but it all comes back to that power she has over me and the fact i know i am the extra wheel with them and their bond. but lately it has all gotten to me many things she says and does have brought me to tears, possibly all stemming from her talking about leaving, i probably dont have real issues in fact i feel it may all be jealously particularly of him, i dont know him i only met him once...
the littlest things have broken me, like a snap or not saying hello or them leaving to do their own thing, i want... too much