So, It Happened.
So. I know all of you (or none of you) were anticipating this, but I broke up with my boyfriend on Tuesday. We'd been together for one year, eight months, and eleven days. It was really hard and I tried to make up for it (even tho I can't) by buying him two shirts, a pair of jeans, and an engraved flask. It said "Always." Because I will always love him. And I am NOT encouraging him to drink! He really wanted one. It's his birthday on Friday, by the way. I know, I'm a horrible person.
I wanted to burn him a CD but since I was running late and I didn't want to keep him waiting since I just broke his heart and he wanted to go back to Santa Barbara I just gave him all of my CD's that I listen to in my car. The ones that I bought and the ones that I burned. All my favorites. I guess it's not such a loss because I still have all the songs on my iTunes but the CD's that I bought are the ones I hella care about. Cuz I cared enough about that music to actually go out and buy a copy instead of burning one. You know? But yeah, I hope he likes them. I also hope one day after he's memorized every single song on all the CD's like I have he can return it to me. And just so you know, I really do love him a lot and I always will. And I hope that one day we can be happy together again. I'm not totally ruling that out.
My mom didn't even care. I told her that I broke up with him and she said, "Good. You shouldn't have friends like that, anyway." Wow, Mom. Props to your cold heart. Way to comfort your daughter as she breaks the heart of someone she loves as well as her own to make you happy. Shit.
Other news:
I got into San Diego State. First acceptance letter, ever.
My mom didn't congratulate me.
I'm happy because this means I'm leaving for sure.
Tell me a secret
I want it
Tell me a story
I need it
I'll listen intensively
I'll stay awake all night
All I need is a whisper
So don't leave
There's nothing left in me
Please help me
Not even my body is strong enough to fight
Let's make this right
Please help me make this right
I wanted to burn him a CD but since I was running late and I didn't want to keep him waiting since I just broke his heart and he wanted to go back to Santa Barbara I just gave him all of my CD's that I listen to in my car. The ones that I bought and the ones that I burned. All my favorites. I guess it's not such a loss because I still have all the songs on my iTunes but the CD's that I bought are the ones I hella care about. Cuz I cared enough about that music to actually go out and buy a copy instead of burning one. You know? But yeah, I hope he likes them. I also hope one day after he's memorized every single song on all the CD's like I have he can return it to me. And just so you know, I really do love him a lot and I always will. And I hope that one day we can be happy together again. I'm not totally ruling that out.
My mom didn't even care. I told her that I broke up with him and she said, "Good. You shouldn't have friends like that, anyway." Wow, Mom. Props to your cold heart. Way to comfort your daughter as she breaks the heart of someone she loves as well as her own to make you happy. Shit.
Other news:
I got into San Diego State. First acceptance letter, ever.
My mom didn't congratulate me.
I'm happy because this means I'm leaving for sure.
Tell me a secret
I want it
Tell me a story
I need it
I'll listen intensively
I'll stay awake all night
All I need is a whisper
So don't leave
There's nothing left in me
Please help me
Not even my body is strong enough to fight
Let's make this right
Please help me make this right