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i can't even begin to explain how empty i feel, i never thought they would of said that stuff to me. never in a million years, i just thought it was said over the internet out of angst & arguments. i've never been hated passionately by anyone before. what hurts most is them laughing at me & wanting me to die. & wishing they never met me. it's funny how people can just drop a year & forget about it. but i can't, not at the moment anyway. i know exactly how i feel & who i am & i know i never wanted this to happen. but i guess it's ok because you now have each other & the rest of the world doesn't matter & most of all that means me. one of the worse things was me starting to believe what they was saying to me! am i really all that stuff they said? does everyone really find me annoying? am i really venom? i don't even know myself anymore. but i realised yesterday i don't even think i know the people i've spent a huge part of my life with. but time will tell, but i think this is it now. closure be fucked!