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i don't really know how to feel right now. i mean i've pretty much just lost everyone that meant anything to me in less than a week, but on the bright side i have one of the most amazing friends still by my side & we had a nice night last night. brat pack film night, well it was more like just the one brat pack film. pretty in pink, i liked it alot & i really liked the girl & her pretty smile!
i feel like i'm kind of neglecting her from her other friends though & i really don't want to do that but she's all i have left really. i don't know where things went wrong mind. i'm not bitter anymore just still a little confused. have i really turned into a deceitful, selfish, childish, lying bitch? i still fail to see how people feeling like shit is my fault though. i didn't really make a mess of anything, so yeah. deal with it.
i just feel left out i guess, & i want people to say..hey, let's go see beth because she's cool & it's strange not having her around anymore. but i guess i'm not that special!
oh well, another day another war!
i feel like i'm kind of neglecting her from her other friends though & i really don't want to do that but she's all i have left really. i don't know where things went wrong mind. i'm not bitter anymore just still a little confused. have i really turned into a deceitful, selfish, childish, lying bitch? i still fail to see how people feeling like shit is my fault though. i didn't really make a mess of anything, so yeah. deal with it.
i just feel left out i guess, & i want people to say..hey, let's go see beth because she's cool & it's strange not having her around anymore. but i guess i'm not that special!
oh well, another day another war!