Trust me, I *wish* I didn't have a life...
Those of you who have been around here for awhile (oh, heyy, guys. I haven't pissed you off enough to leave yet??) have heard this song and dance before, but for all the newbies who are through just sharpening the pitchforks and are already storming off to raid the castle with Gaston, here you go:
No, I haven't died (Fortunately? Unfortunately?). No, I haven't given up Commentarius. Even when I'm 80 and the only people left reading are the cats, I will still undoubtedly keep on trying to finish it. Unfortunately, however, I do have a life. A crazy one. A very, very crazy one right now. I don't really want to get into it all because 1) who cares, and 2) explaining just seems like making mindless excuses, so we'll just leave it at 'crazy' for now. When my life gets like this, in order to deal with it, I have to compartmentalize. I have to say, "All right. To deal with this without jumping out a window, I have to stop focusing on this." More often than not, the second 'this' ends up being the fandom. Not because I don't love it, not because I don't respect all of you and am so grateful that you even care where I am and what I'm writing, but because, well, I'm told family > job > fandom. And as I'm sure all of you can attest to, the fandom is rather all-consuming. So while it may seem just plain rude for me not to even stop by and say, "Things are busy!" I don't do it because I know I could never stop there. I wouldn't be able to stop myself from focusing on finishing the chapter when I know I shouldn't be, answering emails and comments when I shouldn't be, blah blah etc etc.
So, that's what I do. I'm sorry for it, but it's just how I work. I apologize profusely if any of you have issues with it, but I have to keep myself sane. Don't you want me sane? Please? =(
Some of you probably have noticed that I've been slowly easing myself back into the maelstrom, answering emails and PMs and talking to people on AIM etc. No, chapter 24 still isn't done, but I'm at least able to add it back on the To Do list now. I know it's been ages and you're all anxious, but I'm working as quick as I'm able. Hopefully it will be done soon.
In the meantime, I do have a shitload of multimedia goodies and the like that I can post up here in the chapter's absence. It's not 24, but it's something, right?
I haven't gotten the chance to go through all the comments here (I'm rather afraid to, actually. Should I be afraid? How sharp are the pitchforks?), but I am almost caught up with emails and pms and I'm actually available in life again, which is good.
So...yeah, alive. And here. And sorry, but not entirely contrite. Forgive me? But understand? =)
More later, but now I must go before my boss decides to see what I'm doing. Oh, dear. =P
No, I haven't died (Fortunately? Unfortunately?). No, I haven't given up Commentarius. Even when I'm 80 and the only people left reading are the cats, I will still undoubtedly keep on trying to finish it. Unfortunately, however, I do have a life. A crazy one. A very, very crazy one right now. I don't really want to get into it all because 1) who cares, and 2) explaining just seems like making mindless excuses, so we'll just leave it at 'crazy' for now. When my life gets like this, in order to deal with it, I have to compartmentalize. I have to say, "All right. To deal with this without jumping out a window, I have to stop focusing on this." More often than not, the second 'this' ends up being the fandom. Not because I don't love it, not because I don't respect all of you and am so grateful that you even care where I am and what I'm writing, but because, well, I'm told family > job > fandom. And as I'm sure all of you can attest to, the fandom is rather all-consuming. So while it may seem just plain rude for me not to even stop by and say, "Things are busy!" I don't do it because I know I could never stop there. I wouldn't be able to stop myself from focusing on finishing the chapter when I know I shouldn't be, answering emails and comments when I shouldn't be, blah blah etc etc.
So, that's what I do. I'm sorry for it, but it's just how I work. I apologize profusely if any of you have issues with it, but I have to keep myself sane. Don't you want me sane? Please? =(
Some of you probably have noticed that I've been slowly easing myself back into the maelstrom, answering emails and PMs and talking to people on AIM etc. No, chapter 24 still isn't done, but I'm at least able to add it back on the To Do list now. I know it's been ages and you're all anxious, but I'm working as quick as I'm able. Hopefully it will be done soon.
In the meantime, I do have a shitload of multimedia goodies and the like that I can post up here in the chapter's absence. It's not 24, but it's something, right?
I haven't gotten the chance to go through all the comments here (I'm rather afraid to, actually. Should I be afraid? How sharp are the pitchforks?), but I am almost caught up with emails and pms and I'm actually available in life again, which is good.
So...yeah, alive. And here. And sorry, but not entirely contrite. Forgive me? But understand? =)
More later, but now I must go before my boss decides to see what I'm doing. Oh, dear. =P