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So way back during my Christmas holidays I made a resolution to myself, that I wasn’t going to get so self involved over the school term, and I was going to try and function in a more healthy and spiritually holistic sort of way. One facet of this was my intent to update my journal weekly. Nothing personal, because, I’ll be honest, my life is boring as fuck; more me rambling in paragraph form about topics that pique my interest. However, as my constant lack of updates speaks to, I’ve been failing this mission in a pretty big way. I’ve started a few entries, but never really felt like I had anything worth posting.
Although just today I saw a post by Elsabet where she was doing some neat meme where she comments anonymously on folks who read her journal, and one got me thinking: “18 - God, you annoy me sometimes. You think you're so great, when really you're just as great as everyone else. We all have our strengths and weaknesses, so stop being so holier-than-thou.”
The first thought that struck me was “Is she talking about me?” then I scaled the ego back for a moment and comforted myself by assuming not since I fucking update bi-yearly, and she has like a trillion people on her friend’s list. It’s probably gonna be someone whose journal she actually remembers she has on her list rather than myself. Or, it could of course be me. Hell, a description like that applies to about two thirds of the internet, I’m amazed she got by without copying and pasting it 17 times, but then again I’m sure elsabet hangs out in better crowds than I.
Anyway, the moral of this rather narcissistic and self indulgent rambling is that I want to make an earnest effort to update at least biweekly, for at least a few months to try and get myself used to writing things without titles like “How Regionalism is effected by Modernity in Hugh MacLenan’s Barometer Rising.” The sort of things that bring me no fulfillment. God-forbid, I may actually start writing recreationally again.
Hopefully I won’t slip into the depths of assholiery described above. I try to resist it, but it’s never been my strongest suite. I’m prone to bouts of semi-intellectual pretentiousness that I’ve always had a hard time fighting off. I’m really not that bad once you get to know me.
Anyway, this is mostly a preface to my mission. I wanted to write this down and throw it on my decaying semblance of a journal so that I feel guilt and motivation to actually follow through with my task. Also it’s good to write out a mission statement of sorts, rambling though it may be, to state my reasons for doing things, not to mention to brood over my perceived faults because that’s the sort of guy I am!
Although just today I saw a post by Elsabet where she was doing some neat meme where she comments anonymously on folks who read her journal, and one got me thinking: “18 - God, you annoy me sometimes. You think you're so great, when really you're just as great as everyone else. We all have our strengths and weaknesses, so stop being so holier-than-thou.”
The first thought that struck me was “Is she talking about me?” then I scaled the ego back for a moment and comforted myself by assuming not since I fucking update bi-yearly, and she has like a trillion people on her friend’s list. It’s probably gonna be someone whose journal she actually remembers she has on her list rather than myself. Or, it could of course be me. Hell, a description like that applies to about two thirds of the internet, I’m amazed she got by without copying and pasting it 17 times, but then again I’m sure elsabet hangs out in better crowds than I.
Anyway, the moral of this rather narcissistic and self indulgent rambling is that I want to make an earnest effort to update at least biweekly, for at least a few months to try and get myself used to writing things without titles like “How Regionalism is effected by Modernity in Hugh MacLenan’s Barometer Rising.” The sort of things that bring me no fulfillment. God-forbid, I may actually start writing recreationally again.
Hopefully I won’t slip into the depths of assholiery described above. I try to resist it, but it’s never been my strongest suite. I’m prone to bouts of semi-intellectual pretentiousness that I’ve always had a hard time fighting off. I’m really not that bad once you get to know me.
Anyway, this is mostly a preface to my mission. I wanted to write this down and throw it on my decaying semblance of a journal so that I feel guilt and motivation to actually follow through with my task. Also it’s good to write out a mission statement of sorts, rambling though it may be, to state my reasons for doing things, not to mention to brood over my perceived faults because that’s the sort of guy I am!