I am so stressed

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"I'm in debt up to my eyeballs!" - anyone ever seen that commercial? Well I have doctors bills, my new apartment rent + bills due, credit card and the bank to pay now. I'm so fucking stressed. Plus I'm nervous as hell. I'm going to be moving out of my daddys house. This is the biggest step to take. Actually its more like jumping off a cliff and seeing what will happen. I'm scared that I can't make it on my own (even though I'll only be an hour and a half away from home), and I'm scared that me and Stephani will fight or our friendshp will be hindered by the apartment. Summer is almost over and school's gonna start up again. It seems like every time I try to schedule an app. to register for classes they either never answer or I cant find a date to do it. Steph is like on my ass but what can I tell her when theres no way to get it done? Ryan and I are doing so great but I'm so scared that when I move things will get complicated. And he just got a new job offer that will pay much more but will mean he'll never be home except once a month and holidays (or something like that) and I'm begging him not to take it but he really needs the money. I don't know what to do. Helen is starting to act really weird and I'm scared that I'm gonna lose my friendship w/ her. We haven't been able to hang out in so long. And even when we have lately its been all these other people there and stuff happens. I don't know I just hope shes not mad at me. She doesn't like Ryan and I think that has alot to do with it. The good thing about school starting up is that I'm going to be getting serious again, I've never spent an entire summer partying before and frankly now that its coming to end, I'm tired of it.

BUT!~!

I'm going to see Eminem and 50 Cent and the whole G Unit plus special guest THIS FRIDAY!!!! I'm so excited - words cannot explain!! Then Saturday is Lizzie and Sarah's bday party. Here's to happiness in my life...