it's that time again
well.... I guess it's that time again. my life? It's OK i guess. I have a boyfriend, a job, friends, I move into a house in august. My dad came and visited me last wednesday. becky and I don't hang out much which I am upset about but I can't do much about it.
here's what bugs me...
Jon Cameron! Jonathan Robert Cameron. I don't understand how after 3 years you can just totally forget someone. I have had to do a lot of growing up the last few months actually being on my own and having to deal with things by myself. I don't have my mom and dad to fix things for me or help me out. And here is the biggest thing I have gotten out of moving to Tallahassee...I took a lot of things for granted, including Jon. I realize now how much more I could have done for myself and my friends and how much easier things would have been if I had just let go in the begining. Am I sorry for anything? A few things. But am I upset that it's over? NO...just glad that it happened. I haven't talked to Jon in over 2 weeks. and the other day i sent him a txt saying if he was never going to talk to me again I'd at least like to know so I stop wasteing my time calling him...he sent me one back saying...it's up to you if you want to keep wasteing your time. I guess I should take that as it's completely over for good. there is no more love, no trust, no respect, no friendship, no nothing. And this time...I honestly don't care. i wasnt upset, i wasn't hurt, I wasn't mad. I was fine. which to me means a lot. It means that I am finally over that part of my life. Do i wish we could be friends? Not neccessarily. But it would be nice if I called him and he actually answered so i can just say good luck at basic, let me know how it goes. I wish I could say I'm sorry for all the bullshit I put him through and everyone else. *Good Bye Jon*
on a better note I do have a new boyfriend. He's great. We have a lot of fun together. His name is Donny. Speaking of which we are going to the movies to night and I smell so I better go take a shower. I will update again sooner or later.
<3 Natalia
here's what bugs me...
Jon Cameron! Jonathan Robert Cameron. I don't understand how after 3 years you can just totally forget someone. I have had to do a lot of growing up the last few months actually being on my own and having to deal with things by myself. I don't have my mom and dad to fix things for me or help me out. And here is the biggest thing I have gotten out of moving to Tallahassee...I took a lot of things for granted, including Jon. I realize now how much more I could have done for myself and my friends and how much easier things would have been if I had just let go in the begining. Am I sorry for anything? A few things. But am I upset that it's over? NO...just glad that it happened. I haven't talked to Jon in over 2 weeks. and the other day i sent him a txt saying if he was never going to talk to me again I'd at least like to know so I stop wasteing my time calling him...he sent me one back saying...it's up to you if you want to keep wasteing your time. I guess I should take that as it's completely over for good. there is no more love, no trust, no respect, no friendship, no nothing. And this time...I honestly don't care. i wasnt upset, i wasn't hurt, I wasn't mad. I was fine. which to me means a lot. It means that I am finally over that part of my life. Do i wish we could be friends? Not neccessarily. But it would be nice if I called him and he actually answered so i can just say good luck at basic, let me know how it goes. I wish I could say I'm sorry for all the bullshit I put him through and everyone else. *Good Bye Jon*
on a better note I do have a new boyfriend. He's great. We have a lot of fun together. His name is Donny. Speaking of which we are going to the movies to night and I smell so I better go take a shower. I will update again sooner or later.
<3 Natalia