What to do?
So... Carl and I live with my mom. Which is nice and everything... but. There is always a but. I don't exactly agree with my mom smoking. We all know it's bad for you. My mom is obese. So there are two things that are going to kill her. Which makes me upset. Cause... I really want my son to have his grandma. It pisses me off because she could care less about what she does to her body. Which, it is her body, but this also affects other people. I've come to the realization that she will die young. I will handle it better than someone that never saw it coming. I can see it coming a mile away. Not to say I won't have a hard time with it, because it's my mom. As you know, she got a DUI last year. So I thought that would get the whole drinking thing behind her. Behold... in the pantry hidden away so cowardly is the alcohol. If I weren't living here I swear. But, she can make my life a living hell so I say not a damn word. What am I to say while I live for free under her roof? So... what do I do? I have started to look into apartments. Carl and I cannot afford childcare as they will rape us and I really don't trust a stranger to take care of my son all day. Even if I get a part time job I sadly cannot depend on my mother in law to take care of him. Rock and a hard place. The apartments aren't too expensive... up to 670 for a 2 bedroom and if we can do it around 560 for a one bedroom. Food stamps please?? I swear, I never thought I would see the day... food is more expensive than it was even 10 years ago, so it's not my fault. I feel like a bum for not working but we have no other choice. We would be paying seriously over a thousand dollars a month in child care!!! Don't you just love it when life bites you in the butt? We really wanted to stay and save for a house, but I will not live under the same roof with my mother if she wants to be the same person she was in Ohio. Sucks for her though, if she gets DUI here... she'll rot in jail all night because I WILL NOT pick her up. And there is no one else here for her. My dad still works in Ohio and still doesn't have a job down here. I hope she realizes that before she does something stupid.