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post on my life in fast summary...
ive been working tons...
erica now lives up here, her and natalies apartment is amazing, seriously one of the hottest apartments ever...
i miss my second mom, it was sad taking ericas mom to the airport monday, i feel like i need her here.
saturday was the closest i have ever felt to depressed in my life... so much that i couldnt even hide it at work and everyone there noticed... i came home and fell apart.... i talked to my stepdad though, weird huh, i dont usually talk to him, but by sunday i felt all better....
i spent yesterday sick... i felt like shit all day... horrible... i went in to work for 2 hours, but i was soooo weak and sore from having no nutrition in me, i just went home...
today i feel refreshed, but i feel horrible... with me feeling how i did yesterday i completally forgot the importance of yesterday... rememberance....
ashley, im sorry, when you called last night about us going to our spot and i was already in bed, and i didnt feel well, and i said well lets just go tomm... i didnt think about the significance of yesterday, i wish i would have gotten up and talked to you... call me today, we will do our 7-11 thing, and then hit up our spot for a much needed convo...
with yesterday coming i have realized once again, life is too short... i would honestly be sooo sad to ever lose anyone i care about, even the ones i have had problems with, i can guarentee i would be left with only regret and heartache to wake up tomm. with news that you were no longer here... it would be impossible not to once you were close with someone at one point in life, you cant just forget them.... but like you tell me all the time i have brought that stuff upon myself...
my new life goal, work on my actions, have little regret, and be like ashley and have LOTS of hope for people...
~*Rachael*!
PS: im still really missing him, but i just cant afford to go see him =(
ive been working tons...
erica now lives up here, her and natalies apartment is amazing, seriously one of the hottest apartments ever...
i miss my second mom, it was sad taking ericas mom to the airport monday, i feel like i need her here.
saturday was the closest i have ever felt to depressed in my life... so much that i couldnt even hide it at work and everyone there noticed... i came home and fell apart.... i talked to my stepdad though, weird huh, i dont usually talk to him, but by sunday i felt all better....
i spent yesterday sick... i felt like shit all day... horrible... i went in to work for 2 hours, but i was soooo weak and sore from having no nutrition in me, i just went home...
today i feel refreshed, but i feel horrible... with me feeling how i did yesterday i completally forgot the importance of yesterday... rememberance....
ashley, im sorry, when you called last night about us going to our spot and i was already in bed, and i didnt feel well, and i said well lets just go tomm... i didnt think about the significance of yesterday, i wish i would have gotten up and talked to you... call me today, we will do our 7-11 thing, and then hit up our spot for a much needed convo...
with yesterday coming i have realized once again, life is too short... i would honestly be sooo sad to ever lose anyone i care about, even the ones i have had problems with, i can guarentee i would be left with only regret and heartache to wake up tomm. with news that you were no longer here... it would be impossible not to once you were close with someone at one point in life, you cant just forget them.... but like you tell me all the time i have brought that stuff upon myself...
my new life goal, work on my actions, have little regret, and be like ashley and have LOTS of hope for people...
~*Rachael*!
PS: im still really missing him, but i just cant afford to go see him =(