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I'm a horrible LJ friend. I never update this thing.
My grandpa was in the hospital and then the nursing home. I just want things to go back to the way they were before. I'm a bit of a control freak, but what can I say? I just like normalcy and consistancy in my life. I don't know. maybe I just want too much. I feel selfish for wanting things the way they used to be. But I just miss going to my grandparents' house and it being both of them there. I don't like this running to someone else's house to see them. They're living with my aunt now, and it kinda sucks. They're getting one of those caregiving ladies to live with them and take care of them. As much as I want them to be at home, I don't want that caregiver to be there. It's like I know it's better that way if she's there, but yet I don't want her to be there. Plus. this is another sign of their lives deteriorating. My grandpa is ninety-two which is amazing in itself, but I'm still selfish and I want my grandpa to be around. I regret not really getting to know my other grandpa before he passed on. So its' like I thought I would get a second chance with the other one, but no.
I don't know. Am I selfish for thinking this? And this is stressing me out.
28 days of school left...
My grandpa was in the hospital and then the nursing home. I just want things to go back to the way they were before. I'm a bit of a control freak, but what can I say? I just like normalcy and consistancy in my life. I don't know. maybe I just want too much. I feel selfish for wanting things the way they used to be. But I just miss going to my grandparents' house and it being both of them there. I don't like this running to someone else's house to see them. They're living with my aunt now, and it kinda sucks. They're getting one of those caregiving ladies to live with them and take care of them. As much as I want them to be at home, I don't want that caregiver to be there. It's like I know it's better that way if she's there, but yet I don't want her to be there. Plus. this is another sign of their lives deteriorating. My grandpa is ninety-two which is amazing in itself, but I'm still selfish and I want my grandpa to be around. I regret not really getting to know my other grandpa before he passed on. So its' like I thought I would get a second chance with the other one, but no.
I don't know. Am I selfish for thinking this? And this is stressing me out.
28 days of school left...