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Maybe all of us are searching for that one thing we arent but always wanted to be.
Maybe thats what life is all about after all.
i don't love her anymore, i say i do because everyone expects me to. I don't think we will ever be together again. I want something more out of life. & no, its not cause she is curvier than most girls, its because she is just not that bright & she has no drive to succeed when my whole life is about succeeding and putting my all into everything. I can't stand her and i cant even think about it because i'm afraid to say it and sound like an asshole. Everyone plays me off to be the asshole anyway because i'm dating a boy instead of her, i'm dating him because he is wonderful, because he makes me happy, & most of all because i don't spend all my time trying to decide how to define my sexuality. I DON'T FUCKING CARE WHAT HE HAS BETWEEN HIS LEGS ITS WHAT ON THE INSIDE THAT MATTERS.
I'm cynical today.
Maybe thats what life is all about after all.
i don't love her anymore, i say i do because everyone expects me to. I don't think we will ever be together again. I want something more out of life. & no, its not cause she is curvier than most girls, its because she is just not that bright & she has no drive to succeed when my whole life is about succeeding and putting my all into everything. I can't stand her and i cant even think about it because i'm afraid to say it and sound like an asshole. Everyone plays me off to be the asshole anyway because i'm dating a boy instead of her, i'm dating him because he is wonderful, because he makes me happy, & most of all because i don't spend all my time trying to decide how to define my sexuality. I DON'T FUCKING CARE WHAT HE HAS BETWEEN HIS LEGS ITS WHAT ON THE INSIDE THAT MATTERS.
I'm cynical today.