I swear I am as insecure as they come
I've decided to start posting in this because I'm bored tonight and I highly doubt anyone will be reading this.
Anyways, my life is ridiculous right now. I'm so stressed out about college. I can't stand it in this town anymore and I cannot wait to move. My friends aren't making it too easy either. They get pissed off at me for everything I do and I never seem to be good enough.
I really hate when I hang out with people, think everything is fine, and then they turn around and talk shit about me. I would much rather they just come to me and tell me what they're pissed off about. But no, everyone is too immature for that lately.
I'm really starting to believe that I'm not good enough for anyone. All the people that I thought I was getting really close to have backed off and I'm left with nothing. I just want something or someone in my life that is stable. I want someone who will always be there for me. I'm extremely paranoid and always think people are pissed at me. Maybe that's why I push everyone away.
Fuck. I just wish I was a better person overall. Then maybe I wouldn't be so sad all the time and I would have people around me that actually care.