A more contemplative post
Chris amazes the shit out of me with how sweet and wonderful he is. It's stunning how well we mesh and get along. But sometimes I worry that because I'm young, this relationship will somehow not last. That my being this young means that this is an inherently unstable relationship, especially given that the vast majority of people don't find "the one" until they've matured further. But there are always outliers, right?
A lot of relationships this early in life fail because of a lack of maturity. I like to think that I'm more mature than average (although doesn't everyone like to think that?). I handle problems with a minimum of drama, I'm very clear about my thoughts and intentions, and I try to give people the benefit of the doubt. If I get angry or hurt with Chris (not that that's happened more than a couple times), I take a moment to gather my thoughts, tell him what I'm feeling and why, and work to resolve those feelings in a calm and rational way. Sometimes that calm and rational way involves crying, but that's mostly when my hormones are crazy and Chris always has forewarning and an explanation for me being upset. That's a good way to handle things, right?
I guess I only worry because this relationship seems so perfect, so easy, that I can't shake the feeling that it's going to go wrong at some point. Life isn't supposed to be so effortlessly awesome.
A lot of relationships this early in life fail because of a lack of maturity. I like to think that I'm more mature than average (although doesn't everyone like to think that?). I handle problems with a minimum of drama, I'm very clear about my thoughts and intentions, and I try to give people the benefit of the doubt. If I get angry or hurt with Chris (not that that's happened more than a couple times), I take a moment to gather my thoughts, tell him what I'm feeling and why, and work to resolve those feelings in a calm and rational way. Sometimes that calm and rational way involves crying, but that's mostly when my hormones are crazy and Chris always has forewarning and an explanation for me being upset. That's a good way to handle things, right?
I guess I only worry because this relationship seems so perfect, so easy, that I can't shake the feeling that it's going to go wrong at some point. Life isn't supposed to be so effortlessly awesome.