Self Awareness? Hah!
It's a gorgeously sunny day with just a nip of cold in the air, promising that fall is creeping into Louisiana. I'm at the library, recharging my computer at one of the nice little tables with outlets built in for just such an occassion. The new coffee shop is running briskly nearby, and I can hear the sound of caffeinated drinks being mixed. The racks of periodicals invite me to figure out how they're organized.
There is a sense in my head that everything is piling up in preparation to come crashing down around and on me. At the very least, the two tests next Friday, one right after the other, are going to hamper me and drain my mental resources with worry as well as studying.
I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything with my life; worse, that I'm not going to accomplish anything. Especially not in a world that requires networking to help with getting good jobs - I've never been good with people.
I don't know what I want to do with myself and never have.
There is a sense in my head that everything is piling up in preparation to come crashing down around and on me. At the very least, the two tests next Friday, one right after the other, are going to hamper me and drain my mental resources with worry as well as studying.
I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything with my life; worse, that I'm not going to accomplish anything. Especially not in a world that requires networking to help with getting good jobs - I've never been good with people.
I don't know what I want to do with myself and never have.