I've got the period blues baby.
Im feeling bleh. Emotionally....its probably my period.
I feel very on edge, very sleepy and very lonely.
Coming to terms with who I am has been very hard. I know I'm not very social, yet I yearn to have more friends. I made a realization the other day that my cell phone never, ever rings. Yet I know, that if it did ring, I more than likely would not answer it.
I wish I could make friends here, but it seems next to impossible. How can I be so anti social yet still want to have friends?
Me and Matt are on the rocks right now. I honestly don't know if it will end up working out in the end. He just isn't understanding where I'm coming from. And that hurts, hurts, hurts. Something about our relationship is no longer sitting well, in the pit of my stomach I know somethings not right. I never thought it would be like this, honestly.
And say our relationship is over. I will have officiallly cut off all ties with everyone.
Thank God for Abby. Thank God that she's always here. And thank God I can tell her pretty much everything.
I am doing well with my family, which is definately a blessing.
But right now, at this moment, I guess I just have the period blues.
And you know its bad, because I never update this thing anymore about my feelings.
p.s. if i recieve an anonymous comment about how horrible I treat Matt, or how much better off he is without crazy, bitchy me...just don't. get a life instead.
Anyway, I dont like this feeling. I'm shaking, my heart is racing and I feel like I could cry at any moment.
Oh period how I hate you.
And from what I have learned, the key to happiness, the key to shaking off depression, is looking on the brighter side.
So here's a try: I'll get friends here one day, freshman year is always the hardest, I still have my family, Abby, and tomorrow will be better.
sorry if this is just becky feeling sorry for herself.
I feel very on edge, very sleepy and very lonely.
Coming to terms with who I am has been very hard. I know I'm not very social, yet I yearn to have more friends. I made a realization the other day that my cell phone never, ever rings. Yet I know, that if it did ring, I more than likely would not answer it.
I wish I could make friends here, but it seems next to impossible. How can I be so anti social yet still want to have friends?
Me and Matt are on the rocks right now. I honestly don't know if it will end up working out in the end. He just isn't understanding where I'm coming from. And that hurts, hurts, hurts. Something about our relationship is no longer sitting well, in the pit of my stomach I know somethings not right. I never thought it would be like this, honestly.
And say our relationship is over. I will have officiallly cut off all ties with everyone.
Thank God for Abby. Thank God that she's always here. And thank God I can tell her pretty much everything.
I am doing well with my family, which is definately a blessing.
But right now, at this moment, I guess I just have the period blues.
And you know its bad, because I never update this thing anymore about my feelings.
p.s. if i recieve an anonymous comment about how horrible I treat Matt, or how much better off he is without crazy, bitchy me...just don't. get a life instead.
Anyway, I dont like this feeling. I'm shaking, my heart is racing and I feel like I could cry at any moment.
Oh period how I hate you.
And from what I have learned, the key to happiness, the key to shaking off depression, is looking on the brighter side.
So here's a try: I'll get friends here one day, freshman year is always the hardest, I still have my family, Abby, and tomorrow will be better.
sorry if this is just becky feeling sorry for herself.