Jeez its been ages...
And I know probably no-one will read this but it is handy sometimes to have an account of things. It can be, I dunno, handy to have something to look back on sometimes. It can make you feel better about your life sometimes to see how you've come along lol. Or haven't in this case I guess. I left college cos of depression and I got behind and stuff. All cos we had to have one of our dogs (Molly) "put down" or "killed" as I like to call it. That day broke my heart. And it kicked off something I think has been on the cards for a long time. At that time I had like three essays to write that weekend as well as going through that and I swear that just unhinged my sanity lol.
I do like the fact I meet up with some good people now-a-days. I go to a goth meetup that is local to me and it's really great. We meet up a coupla times a month, actually three times next weekend lol, on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I always have great fun meeting with these people and it's very theraputic. Actually it's one of the funniest nights ever. And I seem to be able to talk more comfortably with these people than anyone else i've tried talking to. They all have like masters degrees tho which intimidates me a little cos yeah I don't even have an A level yet.
Our other dog Lulu is ill atm. She's 17 and has this awful cough. The vet says he can't hear anything on her lungs or heart but that you can't hear everything and he said given her age it would be cruel to put her through loads of tests and stuff which I totally agree. I'm pretty sure she's not gonna last the year out though. The vet said theres a chance it could be a type of heart problem that they can't pick up on, or that it could be tumours. Either way she's on her way out. Not sure how i'll cope with this one.
I'm going to see Sabrina soon (well hopefully if she gets back in touch to agree times and stuff). This time i'm hoping to go for three weeks which will just be amazing. I saw her last on dec 24th when i'd stayed for about eight days I think. It always makes me cry leaving her lol. I can't believe its been five months without seeing her. And without the internet it's so hard talking to each other regularly but we do what we can. I think if she ever updates on here again you'll find a hell of a lot changed. I have no idea what my life would be without her in it, if i'd never met her. My life would be 100% different. My friend Michael jokes that I should be given a nationality for spending so much time over in Germany lol.
I officially have a huge crush on Jared Leto lol. He's just so gorgeous. Especially in the video for From Yesterday. And I can't wait to see the Beautiful Lie video when they make it. It's my favourite song of theirs atm. It's so beautiful.
Oh also since last time i'm now a complete Nine Inch Nails obssessive lol. And Year Zero is a gorgeous album <3
Anyways that is it I think. Dunoo when i'll be back here. Hm....
I do like the fact I meet up with some good people now-a-days. I go to a goth meetup that is local to me and it's really great. We meet up a coupla times a month, actually three times next weekend lol, on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I always have great fun meeting with these people and it's very theraputic. Actually it's one of the funniest nights ever. And I seem to be able to talk more comfortably with these people than anyone else i've tried talking to. They all have like masters degrees tho which intimidates me a little cos yeah I don't even have an A level yet.
Our other dog Lulu is ill atm. She's 17 and has this awful cough. The vet says he can't hear anything on her lungs or heart but that you can't hear everything and he said given her age it would be cruel to put her through loads of tests and stuff which I totally agree. I'm pretty sure she's not gonna last the year out though. The vet said theres a chance it could be a type of heart problem that they can't pick up on, or that it could be tumours. Either way she's on her way out. Not sure how i'll cope with this one.
I'm going to see Sabrina soon (well hopefully if she gets back in touch to agree times and stuff). This time i'm hoping to go for three weeks which will just be amazing. I saw her last on dec 24th when i'd stayed for about eight days I think. It always makes me cry leaving her lol. I can't believe its been five months without seeing her. And without the internet it's so hard talking to each other regularly but we do what we can. I think if she ever updates on here again you'll find a hell of a lot changed. I have no idea what my life would be without her in it, if i'd never met her. My life would be 100% different. My friend Michael jokes that I should be given a nationality for spending so much time over in Germany lol.
I officially have a huge crush on Jared Leto lol. He's just so gorgeous. Especially in the video for From Yesterday. And I can't wait to see the Beautiful Lie video when they make it. It's my favourite song of theirs atm. It's so beautiful.
Oh also since last time i'm now a complete Nine Inch Nails obssessive lol. And Year Zero is a gorgeous album <3
Anyways that is it I think. Dunoo when i'll be back here. Hm....