Recently...
Things have been very down. Cried four times wednsday, twice when talking with mum, then twice cos of something else. Then last night was one of the worst of my life. Me and mum argued so badly that I was literally in my room packing my bags to leave. Then we had a very big talk, much arguments, she told me something id never known before, a secret shed kept for sixteen years aaaand yeah. I cried so much. Im glad that day is over and I hope that this can be the start of a change, for the better :)
I think no matter how hard it was that night was needed. We got a lot out in the air and its made me wanna change a lot of things that were wrong, and maybe given me some kind of push that I needed to do this.
Sabrinas going Monday which sucks, I know its only for a week but ive got used to having her here, I couldnt imagine things being different now, I couldnt imagine her being away, not going to liverpool, not hanging out all day, talking, laughing...just anything. I guess this is gonna be a taste for when she leaves to go back to germany for good and I know its gonna be so hard then. Meh.
I know though that even when she goes back and things will be horrible then it wont be as bad as before. Since shes been here ive gained some confidence, I would go out more then and stuff. My look changed too and I think for the better. I feel better in myself. Shes a miracle worker :)
Lets see what this future is gonna bring...
I think no matter how hard it was that night was needed. We got a lot out in the air and its made me wanna change a lot of things that were wrong, and maybe given me some kind of push that I needed to do this.
Sabrinas going Monday which sucks, I know its only for a week but ive got used to having her here, I couldnt imagine things being different now, I couldnt imagine her being away, not going to liverpool, not hanging out all day, talking, laughing...just anything. I guess this is gonna be a taste for when she leaves to go back to germany for good and I know its gonna be so hard then. Meh.
I know though that even when she goes back and things will be horrible then it wont be as bad as before. Since shes been here ive gained some confidence, I would go out more then and stuff. My look changed too and I think for the better. I feel better in myself. Shes a miracle worker :)
Lets see what this future is gonna bring...