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i decided to take my LJ off of friends only for a while but knowing me it will be back to being friends only (LoL) but yea...i dont understand what i did to jacob to make him treat me the way he does...all i ever did to him was love him he means so much to me and it just hurts so bad to even think about him...every time i start to think about him my eyes start to water really bad and i try so hard not to cry but sometimes i just cant stop myself and i just cry i hate being like this and i wish he would just talkto me at least he is the only person that i like and i know that me and him dont talk or nething but like when i am around other guys i still dont feel right like i feel like i would be doing something wrong if i started talking to them i guess im like that bcuz my feelings for jacob are so strong i really dont want to let him go he is everything that i have been looking for in a guy and its just really hard for me to let go of him i want to be with him so bad and he dont want nething to do with me right now i wanna just call him but i dont know what to say to him when i get on the phone with him so i just dont call him but im starting to not feel good again so im goint to go to bed now...ttyl...one