don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you've got til it's gone...

[becko713]

i fucking hate that quote because it's so incredibly true it's sickening. i find myself staying up until like 2 or 3 each night, doing absolutely nothing. i mean i get home around like 12 or 12:30 and just do nothing. i hate the night time because i think soo much and analyze like crazy just my life i guess. that quote is just basically killing me lately. based on just things in the past (obviously since htey're "gone") and thinking about how pretty soon it's goign to be i don't know what i've got as in like friends and home and everything once i'm in college. i know it's going to be amazing and seriously i am soo excited. but seriously? college...you must be joking only a year until i go? how did i ever get this old? seriously like i sort of remember elementary school and just every year it just felt so far away. i'd see my cousins graduating and neighbors and be like wow i have like 8 more years before that happens. basically it's like my childhood is ending. that's so scary, ok just a warning i'm going to be talking baout this throughout this whole senior year, but seriously how am i really a senior? like did we not just start out at high school like a week ago or something. i was thinking about how much a certain class sucked soph. year nad i was like wow that was 2 years ago already. i guess i'm just so realistic when it comes to stuff liek this. i'm always bringing up how crazy it is that i'll be a legal adult in like 8 months (i know that's pretty far away but still). it's like everyones goign to college we'll all get married probably within 10 years adn like start families. ahhh how?! why am i crazy adn think about these htings. anyways i'm excited as hell but so scared for the future i guess in a way. like i hate change so much and i just don't want to loose people i've grown up with for the past 17 years. ok whoa i must just be really tired or have a case of the mondays. anyways happy tuesday morning!
peace, love, and almost hopkins alumni,
boo