March of Doom
Rachels Bridal Shower was last Saturday and you don't know how glad I am that it's over! I'm glad that everyone enjoyed themselves but I was not made to be a party planner. Especially for someone else. I get too stressed out and worried that things are going to go wrong and people are going to hate it. So no one else ask me to be their maid of honor, because I may just say no. Or hand you some money and tell you to plan your own damn party! Thank goodness for my mother and Amy who were there for me all the way.
Speaking of Rachel getting married... there are 9 days until she get's hitched. That totally blows my mind! I think I'm actually nervous about it too and I can't figure out why. I'm to the point of not even be able to fall asleep at night because I'm thinking about so many things. It's not just the wedding, but a mixture of everything going on right now in my life. I just don't get why everyone is in such a rush to tie the knot. You know how they say some little girls plan their weddings from when they're like 10 years old. I wasn't one of those little girls. I guess I do want to get married eventually, but I don't see the big rush everyone is in. Maybe I'm just bitter about the whole institution since I work in a plant and I've heard almost every person, man or woman, talking about how they hate their wife or husband. Or they're cheating on them already. I think working here has just tainted my idea of relationships in general... because no one seems to give a fuck. Everyone is out for personal gratification... maybe I should be too. It just leaves you so empty inside.
Speaking of Rachel getting married... there are 9 days until she get's hitched. That totally blows my mind! I think I'm actually nervous about it too and I can't figure out why. I'm to the point of not even be able to fall asleep at night because I'm thinking about so many things. It's not just the wedding, but a mixture of everything going on right now in my life. I just don't get why everyone is in such a rush to tie the knot. You know how they say some little girls plan their weddings from when they're like 10 years old. I wasn't one of those little girls. I guess I do want to get married eventually, but I don't see the big rush everyone is in. Maybe I'm just bitter about the whole institution since I work in a plant and I've heard almost every person, man or woman, talking about how they hate their wife or husband. Or they're cheating on them already. I think working here has just tainted my idea of relationships in general... because no one seems to give a fuck. Everyone is out for personal gratification... maybe I should be too. It just leaves you so empty inside.