The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had

[beckertwash]

The week my grandfather died and we were all down there with him... I couldn't stop trying to memorize everything about him.  I counted the freckles or liver spots on his left hand every day waiting for the number to change.  I examined the ridges in his bad fingernail from when he got his hand stuck while loading artillary into a huge gun on the

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[xlovelessangelx]

Becca....I know that we don't really talk anymore--and we see each other every once in awhile, whether it's planned, by chance or to celebrate something...but I want you to know, without sounding cliche, if you need someone to talk to I'm always around. I'm very sorry to hear about the loss of your grandpa....it's never easy losing a family member or a loved one.
In the past 3 months my great aunt and my dad's brother both passed....this year has been full of some extreme highs and some extreme lows, for quite a few people it seems. When my Uncle Jim passed, driving down to PA and seeing family I haven't seen in awhile, seeing my dad dealing with a loss that I can't even begin to understand....it brought a lot of things into perspective for me. Knowing that he was so sick didn't really help at the time because I felt, with the other deaths that have come to be this past year, everything was coming undone. I know now that they don't necessarily leave us...just the shell goes. Those memories that you have made....they will never leave, Becca. You will have those forever.

I'm always here.