Yeah, i'm not so great with keeping up with this thing!
To anyone who possibly still reads this...i don't know why you would, i haven't updated in three thousand years!
Life has been SUPER crazy. I know there are a ton of people who are much more busy than me, but they usually are really busy with one thing. I am busy with SOOO many different things, that i find i get stressed out from just trying to remember what meeting i have when, and when im supposed to do what. I have so much going on, that i even stopped dancing this year. For those of you who know me, i have taken dance classes since lord knows when. It has been something i've really always done. But my parents have been putting SOO much pressure on me to do really good, and to be top of my class, and it's stressful. I have always gotten good grades. But I've never worried about my GPA or making sure i study and trying to stay awake and pay attention when the only thing that sounds good is curling up in my bed and never waking up. I know i make my parents sound completely evil, and that's not it at all. Yes, they want me to do well, but they won't like ground me or anything if i don't get straight A's. I put a lot of the pressure on myself, too. My older sister is in college, and she is doing really well, but she wants to be a dance teacher. And my parents accept that, but you can kind of tell they aren't 100% completely satisfied with it. My little brother is a skater dude, and that is what he loves. So naturally, school is NOT his priority, so he has a lot of trouble keeping his grades up to my parents expectations. Once again though, they are not mean about it, but you can always tell when they know you could have done better. And then theres me. I'm the focused one, always have done really well in school, have always succeeded, i know exactly what i want to be when i grow up, and i know how I'm going to get there. Even if i suddenly decided i didn't want to be a neonatologist, and that maybe i just wanted to sit in a desk and do nothing, i feel like i can't. My parents are such good parents, and i feel like i have to become something amazing so that they can sit with there friends and brag about the success of there child. It might sound wierd to a lot of people, but that's just how it goes. I don't really mean to complain, i'm really happy with my life, and where its taking me. But for now, its just stressful. I have the best friends though, and an amazing sister. I know i can always count on them to talk to, and they will always be by my side. I couldn't really ask for much more...
Life has been SUPER crazy. I know there are a ton of people who are much more busy than me, but they usually are really busy with one thing. I am busy with SOOO many different things, that i find i get stressed out from just trying to remember what meeting i have when, and when im supposed to do what. I have so much going on, that i even stopped dancing this year. For those of you who know me, i have taken dance classes since lord knows when. It has been something i've really always done. But my parents have been putting SOO much pressure on me to do really good, and to be top of my class, and it's stressful. I have always gotten good grades. But I've never worried about my GPA or making sure i study and trying to stay awake and pay attention when the only thing that sounds good is curling up in my bed and never waking up. I know i make my parents sound completely evil, and that's not it at all. Yes, they want me to do well, but they won't like ground me or anything if i don't get straight A's. I put a lot of the pressure on myself, too. My older sister is in college, and she is doing really well, but she wants to be a dance teacher. And my parents accept that, but you can kind of tell they aren't 100% completely satisfied with it. My little brother is a skater dude, and that is what he loves. So naturally, school is NOT his priority, so he has a lot of trouble keeping his grades up to my parents expectations. Once again though, they are not mean about it, but you can always tell when they know you could have done better. And then theres me. I'm the focused one, always have done really well in school, have always succeeded, i know exactly what i want to be when i grow up, and i know how I'm going to get there. Even if i suddenly decided i didn't want to be a neonatologist, and that maybe i just wanted to sit in a desk and do nothing, i feel like i can't. My parents are such good parents, and i feel like i have to become something amazing so that they can sit with there friends and brag about the success of there child. It might sound wierd to a lot of people, but that's just how it goes. I don't really mean to complain, i'm really happy with my life, and where its taking me. But for now, its just stressful. I have the best friends though, and an amazing sister. I know i can always count on them to talk to, and they will always be by my side. I couldn't really ask for much more...