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I can't wait until I can move to Medford. I get to move next Monday (June 1.) Maybe they'll let me start on Sunday, though. That would be nice!
I wish I could stop thinking so much. I want to just enjoy my life as it is in the moment without freaking out about what that means for the future. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in planning for the future and making sure every move I make will be good in the long run that I am unable to just exist now. Also, money is a problem... when I think about what my absolute goal in life is, etc, I get stuck when thinking that I don't have the money/resources to achieve that. So in order to get that, I have to get a good job that pays me ok. In order to do that I have to do well with my schoolwork and be responsible and rely on my good work ethic... In order to do that I have to sacrifice a lot right now.
But people who have bad work ethics or who are more of a mess than I am or who I see as irresponsible and immature, I'm annoyed by them and jealous of them all at once.
I wish I could stop thinking so much. I want to just enjoy my life as it is in the moment without freaking out about what that means for the future. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in planning for the future and making sure every move I make will be good in the long run that I am unable to just exist now. Also, money is a problem... when I think about what my absolute goal in life is, etc, I get stuck when thinking that I don't have the money/resources to achieve that. So in order to get that, I have to get a good job that pays me ok. In order to do that I have to do well with my schoolwork and be responsible and rely on my good work ethic... In order to do that I have to sacrifice a lot right now.
But people who have bad work ethics or who are more of a mess than I am or who I see as irresponsible and immature, I'm annoyed by them and jealous of them all at once.