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I've gotten into this habit where whenever there a behavior, feeling, or aspect of life that I find puzzling, I try to figure out why it could be adaptable, biologically rooted, or an evolutionary advantage. I'm sure it's pretty annoying to people around me (if they've noticed), because it's starting to bug me too. I'm not sure why I got into the habit, but maybe it will come to me. I'm thinking about it now because I was feeling lonely and I was wondering why that's a good thing in the larger picture. I guess it's good or an adaptable behavior because it propels you to seek out other people, who you can work with, reproduce with, build with, etc. It sucks when you're in it, though. Maybe just being at home makes me feel kinda strange, like I'm moving backwards.
I'm preparing myself for a big shift. In 2 months, I will go from having tons of local friends and acquaintances to having very few friends who are actually living near me. And I know that I will make new friends, because I am always able to, but I like THESE ones. You can remain sorta friends with people who live far away from you, but it is not the same. Friendships after school must be different than the ones you can have when you're all still students. I don't need to name names I guess, but many people are moving away after we graduate. Maybe this will force me to find friends that I actually have things in common with? I do have a couple of those, but not many. I've been looking online and in the pagan community for people with whom I share more of a connection, but it's been something that I haven't really gotten the hang of. A year ago, I barely cared about most of my "friends" because I didn't feel like they really knew me or cared about me (and it was probably partially true, not by fault of theirs or anything really) but now I feel very attached to them. I'll just prepare myself for a period of being able to be by myself, work on myself, spend time alone, develop my own interests and activities. Stay optimistic...
I'm preparing myself for a big shift. In 2 months, I will go from having tons of local friends and acquaintances to having very few friends who are actually living near me. And I know that I will make new friends, because I am always able to, but I like THESE ones. You can remain sorta friends with people who live far away from you, but it is not the same. Friendships after school must be different than the ones you can have when you're all still students. I don't need to name names I guess, but many people are moving away after we graduate. Maybe this will force me to find friends that I actually have things in common with? I do have a couple of those, but not many. I've been looking online and in the pagan community for people with whom I share more of a connection, but it's been something that I haven't really gotten the hang of. A year ago, I barely cared about most of my "friends" because I didn't feel like they really knew me or cared about me (and it was probably partially true, not by fault of theirs or anything really) but now I feel very attached to them. I'll just prepare myself for a period of being able to be by myself, work on myself, spend time alone, develop my own interests and activities. Stay optimistic...