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i hate being made to feel guilty for not wanting to do something. i know most of the guilt i'm feeling is more of my own doing but still, i felt like the implications of "you should feel bad" were there. now i'm just more miserable than before. i just don't want to do anything today. actually i'm at the point where i don't want to really do anything at all. ever. i know it's depression and the worst thing you can possibly do is sit on my ass and hide from the world, but that's all i want to do.
i don't know how my sister plans to leave home and not be near everyone because my mom has been gone for two days and i already miss her. i could never live far away from my parents.
i'm sick of making up excuses for not wanting to do things. why can't i just say no i do't feel like going out and leave it like that? sometimes you want to just sit there and do nothing (or watch keanu movies).
i shouldn't feel guilty about that. so why do i?
i don't know how my sister plans to leave home and not be near everyone because my mom has been gone for two days and i already miss her. i could never live far away from my parents.
i'm sick of making up excuses for not wanting to do things. why can't i just say no i do't feel like going out and leave it like that? sometimes you want to just sit there and do nothing (or watch keanu movies).
i shouldn't feel guilty about that. so why do i?