4th time's a charm
so, i'm trying to go back to school....again. i finally got mad at myself for being such a complaining whiny person. the way i feel is if you're not going to do anything to improve upon your situation, then you have no right to complain.
thinking along that line, i'm teaching a diet class and i'm going back on the diet again. i only gained probably about 4 or 5 pounds so i'm still down about 15. i want to lose about 10 more by my birthday. so i will be following the diet to a T.
i don't have a degree, so i went to see a counselor. that was an amusing trip. he asked me why i was there and i told him i wanted that piece of paper that said i had a degree and i didn't care what it was in. so i'm sticking with visual arts, but am going with art history concentration. there's a lot of shit i have left to take. my primary concern that threw me back to high school was that i have to take a gym class. but jess said she'd take it with me. so that won't be too bad. at least i won't have to worry about having a partner! i think my mom and dad are most thrilled by this but i think they're slightly frightened to say anything that might scare me away from this new idea. and i paid for my class. my mom nearly had a heart attack. she said she'd help, but somehow knowing i paid for the class, and am therefore not under their thumb and not feeling the pressure to overachieve for my parents sake it's easier. i also told her she could buy my books.
i'm forever hopeless in the love life/boyfriend department, but i won't go there. i'm putting my life together. slowly, piece by piece. i'm even working on my spiritual life by having regular study dates with nikki where we both sit and read or talk about the craft. (after angel, of course).
i don't feel as hopeless anymore. i paid off a credit card, and half of another one, so my debt is slowly winding down. i might actually be seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, but i don't want to get too optimistic.
i think this sat/sun will be the attack my room days. i've gotten to the point where emotional attachment or not i don't care, EVERYTHING is going to get the eff out of my way. plus nikki, being the super friend she is, offered her basement to me. not like her whole basement but a box or two worth of stuff. that will go a LONG way. it will open up a whole shelf in my closet and give me the ability to organize further. actually, i don't care about organizing i just want to be able to walk from my door to my bed to my closet and back again without having to wade.
now that i'm out of the dark i also have to call upon people i've been neglecting. i haven't seen sarah, tracy, or jacqui in forever but i plan on fixing that this week!
anyway, that is my progress report. everyone else, check in!
thinking along that line, i'm teaching a diet class and i'm going back on the diet again. i only gained probably about 4 or 5 pounds so i'm still down about 15. i want to lose about 10 more by my birthday. so i will be following the diet to a T.
i don't have a degree, so i went to see a counselor. that was an amusing trip. he asked me why i was there and i told him i wanted that piece of paper that said i had a degree and i didn't care what it was in. so i'm sticking with visual arts, but am going with art history concentration. there's a lot of shit i have left to take. my primary concern that threw me back to high school was that i have to take a gym class. but jess said she'd take it with me. so that won't be too bad. at least i won't have to worry about having a partner! i think my mom and dad are most thrilled by this but i think they're slightly frightened to say anything that might scare me away from this new idea. and i paid for my class. my mom nearly had a heart attack. she said she'd help, but somehow knowing i paid for the class, and am therefore not under their thumb and not feeling the pressure to overachieve for my parents sake it's easier. i also told her she could buy my books.
i'm forever hopeless in the love life/boyfriend department, but i won't go there. i'm putting my life together. slowly, piece by piece. i'm even working on my spiritual life by having regular study dates with nikki where we both sit and read or talk about the craft. (after angel, of course).
i don't feel as hopeless anymore. i paid off a credit card, and half of another one, so my debt is slowly winding down. i might actually be seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, but i don't want to get too optimistic.
i think this sat/sun will be the attack my room days. i've gotten to the point where emotional attachment or not i don't care, EVERYTHING is going to get the eff out of my way. plus nikki, being the super friend she is, offered her basement to me. not like her whole basement but a box or two worth of stuff. that will go a LONG way. it will open up a whole shelf in my closet and give me the ability to organize further. actually, i don't care about organizing i just want to be able to walk from my door to my bed to my closet and back again without having to wade.
now that i'm out of the dark i also have to call upon people i've been neglecting. i haven't seen sarah, tracy, or jacqui in forever but i plan on fixing that this week!
anyway, that is my progress report. everyone else, check in!