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I'm up to 7 pages on this paper... I started with about 3.5 tonight. That's enough for now...
I got distracted by facebook just a minute ago and had a good laugh. I realized just how glad I am to have moved on from high school. I can get on there and see that so-and-so posted on whats-her-face's wall about something they are doing together. And I just can't believe they're still that close. Not that I don't still have friends from back then that I cherish, but we had more than a shallow, superficial friendship even then. These girls? I was friends with them, I know what their liking for each other is based on... that being, what the other can do for them. I guess that is what all relationships in this world are based on though. I think my expectations are more along the lines of fun, companionship, laughter, and a shoulder to cry on than money, food, popularity, and things like that. Who am I to judge... I suppose their relationships developed over time to something more, but isn't it hard to know that the only reason you're friends is because you felt you needed something out of a person?
Maybe I'm just biased to think better of myself than others though. It is human nature to consider yourself more moral and fair than others... and it's totally proven by stuff we heard in class. Am I really a better person or do I just think I am because it is what I know? I hope I'm at least a good person, and if that is all I can be, I am OK with that.
That also makes me think, why do people like me anyway? I'm loud. REALLY loud. I'm pretty rude too, I belch a lot...generally without warning or even excuse. I'm pretty obnoxious, and I talk to much. No really, I NEVER shut up. My laughter could burst an eardrum, and I'm honestly surprised it never has. I am strangely obsessed with llamas, and I freak out at the sight of anything with 8 legs... or two legs and a set of wings. I guess maybe that is why people like me... I'm me. I'm not going to cover up those things to try and impress you. If someone doesn't like some aspect of me, I'd hope they'll just remove themself from the equation rather than expect me to change.
I guess that makes the people who have stuck around pretty damn awesome. Maybe that's why I have SO many close friendships as opposed to the fleeting acquantances I once thought were worth it. I'd rather have 100 people I can honestly call my best friend than just 1 or 2, and I think I probably have a good number who qualify. That makes me feel pretty damn good inside.
Huh. Don't really know where that came from. The birds are chirping outside b/c the damn PC lights are so bright... Yep, it looks like dawn. I guess I should sleep so when the real sun comes up, I'm ready for it.
I got distracted by facebook just a minute ago and had a good laugh. I realized just how glad I am to have moved on from high school. I can get on there and see that so-and-so posted on whats-her-face's wall about something they are doing together. And I just can't believe they're still that close. Not that I don't still have friends from back then that I cherish, but we had more than a shallow, superficial friendship even then. These girls? I was friends with them, I know what their liking for each other is based on... that being, what the other can do for them. I guess that is what all relationships in this world are based on though. I think my expectations are more along the lines of fun, companionship, laughter, and a shoulder to cry on than money, food, popularity, and things like that. Who am I to judge... I suppose their relationships developed over time to something more, but isn't it hard to know that the only reason you're friends is because you felt you needed something out of a person?
Maybe I'm just biased to think better of myself than others though. It is human nature to consider yourself more moral and fair than others... and it's totally proven by stuff we heard in class. Am I really a better person or do I just think I am because it is what I know? I hope I'm at least a good person, and if that is all I can be, I am OK with that.
That also makes me think, why do people like me anyway? I'm loud. REALLY loud. I'm pretty rude too, I belch a lot...generally without warning or even excuse. I'm pretty obnoxious, and I talk to much. No really, I NEVER shut up. My laughter could burst an eardrum, and I'm honestly surprised it never has. I am strangely obsessed with llamas, and I freak out at the sight of anything with 8 legs... or two legs and a set of wings. I guess maybe that is why people like me... I'm me. I'm not going to cover up those things to try and impress you. If someone doesn't like some aspect of me, I'd hope they'll just remove themself from the equation rather than expect me to change.
I guess that makes the people who have stuck around pretty damn awesome. Maybe that's why I have SO many close friendships as opposed to the fleeting acquantances I once thought were worth it. I'd rather have 100 people I can honestly call my best friend than just 1 or 2, and I think I probably have a good number who qualify. That makes me feel pretty damn good inside.
Huh. Don't really know where that came from. The birds are chirping outside b/c the damn PC lights are so bright... Yep, it looks like dawn. I guess I should sleep so when the real sun comes up, I'm ready for it.