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So life is going really well right now and I love that. Finally everything that I've ever wanted is happening. Jamie and I are together, after waiting 6 and a half years. I love him with all my heart and he loves me too...finally haha. I'm just really happy, but I'm sad that I hurt Steve in the process. That definitely sucks, but I have to follow my heart so I can be happy. Jamie and I even are thinking about living together when he gets home. Sure that's like 2 years away but it's worth it. He's worth every day and year that I've waited for him and I'm so happy. I'm happy that he's happy too. I was afraid he might be really scared now and doubting it but he hasn't been, he says I love you to me and stuff like that. He said that since we're together he wants it to be everyday, I mean that's the sweetest thing ever. And we were talking about how we'd live in NH and he'd be going back to school and I'd be working and we could have breakfast in the morning together and eat together at dinner and I don't know it just seems perfect. It was totally worth the wait. I told him I wanted to go on a cruise too and we might do that in the winter. That would be awesome. I would love to spend a romantic few days with him on a cruise. I love life right now and I'm not going to do anything to screw it up that's for sure. I kind of feel bad though because I keep thinking about getting engaged. I think it's because everyone else around me is getting engaged right now...Sue and then Michelle and Deb are pretty close to that. I just want to know that I'm going to marry him eventually because I do want to spend the rest of my life with him. I'm just afraid that if I try to talk to him about that it'll scare him. I don't know...I guess I'll just have to keep waiting. As long as we're together haha...that's all I really care about. Getting engaged is just a bonus haha. Boy do I love him...more than anything. It's good to be happy :o)